How say in the last year or so everything just seems grayer and sadder?

I mean I understand Covid has caused a lot of boredom, anger, sadness and stopped life as a whole, But during this whole time I've kept it moving.

Doing things, traveling, trying things out...I refused to take a knee and stay at home or be confined.

But there is like a cloud over the US where no matter where you look it all seems dirty, old and gray.

I understand that I recently had to deal with both sadness and death, but this goes back even before this.

Just it never reached me...I always try to keep it moving when I sense times are bad...Plus I tend to be OPPOSITES...If things are bad then usually I'm doing great.

To me this feels world wide where people sometimes laugh too loud and pretend to be having a great time, but it seems forced or fake.

I recently went back to work to say good bye to my partners and as I stood there they looked sick, old and sad.

No one looked happy, strong and healthy.

It's like something was sucking the energy out of all us...Our life force.

Anyone get what I'm talking about?