So I've been sick...Really sick.

Was in ICU for almost 6 days...O2 levels around 84% all fucked up.

Mother about to die and I understand that people are sometimes at loss of words...But ever get people that call just so they can say some stupid bullshit like:

"Hey if you need something let me know!"

Or

"Hey everything is going to be okay!"

People who get your number, text something, don't introduce themselves then pat themselves on the back.

Like they did anything or even helped.

GARBAGE PEOPLE.

They don't even care, not that I expect them to, but why even bug me?

Just let me stew and be sad or angry...Not give me some ridiculous pat on the head like they helped...They just want to feel like they're heroes FOR DOING NOTHING. 

That's the problem with today.

EVERYONE IS FAKE.

Now we're not all friends, or anything beyond friendly banter...That's fine and normal, but let's fucking keep it real.

Don't wish me luck when we've never talked, don't ask me to call if I need something...That's just shit fake people say.

Say I hope your Mother passes quickly...NOW THAT I FUCKING APPRECIATE.

My mother is old...She lived a long healthy life...If it's her time it's been my pleasure and honor of having had her all this time.

I will be crushed, sad and all kinds of fucked up, but I will rise.

Nothing is forever...So if you see a friend broken and hurt.

SOMETIMES it's okay to just let them suffer to get it out of their system.

Don't even talk or try to help...Just sit there and listen THAT is the most important thing you can do for someone.

Pretty words mean NOTHING.