Watching "The Paramedic" on Netflix.

Cringy like a motherfucker.

It's a Spanish movie, about this sleazy paramedic with a hot GF, who gets into an accident and crippled.

 He then snaps when she leaves him.

Cringy!  I can't stand dudes like that...Watching them fight, as he kept trying to revive a dead relationship makes me queasy.

I remember doing that once a loooooooong time ago, when I was new to relationships in my early 20's...That shit had me all sad, sucked up, mopey etc.

It was like a bad 80's movie...Hot redhead, who was a professional ballerina and stripped on the side to make bills and me some dumb ass college kid who was all ga-ga for her.  

To this day...I can't stand to watch "Carlito's Way"

Worst 18 months of my life.

But AFTERWARDS, with other women things might suck, I might be sad, but I pushed through it and made up for whomever I lost.

I hit the gym, studied, learned things, traveled, changed my hair, style etc.

But this dude is cringy as fuck...Trying to force the girl to stay with him or fall "BACK" in love with him.

I've seen this from both sides and neither is good...What I learned with that heavy lesson is:

WHEN IT'S OVER IT'S OVER...END IT WELL...SAY GOOD BYE AND LEAVE EACH OTHER ALONE.

IN FACT, IF YOU REALLY LOVE THE PERSON, BUT THEY DON'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU?   

NEVER TALK, WRITE OR BOTHER THE PERSON...MOVE ON.

That terrible time I spent drunk, sad and pining for her was the best lesson I've ever had...It changed my entire dating, relationship process.

So watching this movie makes me think of all the simps who get left and NEVER move on.

They become broken, sad, mopey, fat fucks who end up with the first girl to give them attention or sex...I literally described every single of my partners from work who got left.

20's were hard, fast, strong full of regrets

30's were bad then INCREDIBLY good...Yes even with 2 divorces.

40's were very very good 

50's have slowed down, but they are oddly good.

But I owe it all to getting fucked up bad emotionally in my 20's...It made me able to bounce back strong and with a purpose.

This this movie is good, but be advised it will remind you of some creepy ex-bf for some of you.