Ok so… this girl made it clear she didn’t want to talk to me anymore. And I was pretty sure I didn’t want to talk to her anymore either cause of the fact that she wouldn’t go to rehab. So we both said fuck you and went on our merry ass ways.. and it was going good. You know I downloaded pof again and started talking to people. Which im pretty happy about because I feel as if the person im talking to I can relate to on pretty much anything and everything. And im so falling really fast and I hope I don’t get hurt cause idk.. I really want this to be real. And I had explained what had happened to me with my past ex of 4 years I mean I wasn’t really wasn’t a girlfriend just more of a slut telling her I loved her and she only talked to me when something fucked up happened to her and her main.. cause we were doing poly ass shit with each other.. which clearly isn’t for me anymore after meeting this lovely woman. Like I really like her a lot. But.. fuck my ex must of seen the video I made for my new girl and she texted me and was like CHANGE YOUR NUMBER and she like wanted to make sure I knew she was moving.. like good bitch I don’t even care to be on the same fucking coast as you.. go get sober and clean the fuck up.. when I realize it I don’t even think I loved her, cause the whole relationship was so damn fucked up.. and im ready for a calm im ready for someone that will choose me day in and day out and so far ive been getting that with this girl. I just love our conversations and she really listens and im just grateful asf. Like totally.. im really happy about it.