Sitting outside on the deck,enjoying the fall weather. Just doing some critical thinking and being thankful for what I have at the moment. Had some close family members move back to MN from CA so the main family is back together again. My ex has been on my mind everyday still and I was going to go suprise them on there birthday today at work. I really thought about from a good perspective instead of just reacting,and It made sense the move would do more harm then good,adding this: She will,no matter what always correct and argue the point untill she is right,if she is wrong she would get offended,she would drink alot to manage her Anxiety and would be critical of me for not spending enough time with her even though im busy as all hell,She came over to my place unannounced and broke up with me,i looked back i realized we were both on/off again like 12 times durring our relationship. There were non-verbal expectations of how things should go,if those were not met there would be issues with her getting mad at me. She also would dissappear into the other room on her phone and be messageing some unknown person about something i did...the worst part is she would force me to wait for weeks,even almost a MONTH for her to make up her mind and get over whatever it was. So will continue to enjoy the day and hopefully get some music on the Bandcamp. Good things coming I'm sure...; )