When you lived through decades of the threat from nuclear annihilation during the Cold War, today's geopolitical kerfuffle is amateur.

Happiness and good Fortune are like a golden sand flowing into an hourglass of life sometimes there are black grains representing the bad things that sometimes happen but for most they are tuning to gold once they reach the majority of gold. But for some people the sand has more black grains than most, and some of those tend to give their few golden grains to others to help them turn their black to gold, which often leave the givers with overpowering obsidian sand that often turns new gold to black. And if they ask others for just a speckle of gold in return to help Turing the black to gold, they often have to beg for it or end up turning the others sand black just by opening their their hourglass. I am certainly one of the latter people. My body and mind is filled with poisonous black sand and my tongue turns it into venom injecting it to others whenever reach for support or comfort. I have realized a very concerning pattern that gives me the worst anxiety right now. I'm poisoning the last golden grain of sand whenever I open my heart and don't swallow my feelings for once. I should finally stop trying and go back to being the quiet listener that gives her golden grains to others and fights against the black by herself. That will spare me from a lot of feelings of disappointment, and anxiety and guilt about upsetting others by voicing when I'm being upset or disappointed. I'll just suck it up and be too forgiving for my own good the sake of harmony. How sad is that? I have become scared of being upset because it upsets others and I feel guilty then. Can one be more of a peoplepleaser just to not end up all alone? Today was a terrible day on so many levels, not only was I still feeling upset, I was also anxious to the point of barely being able to breathe because I had I realized this destructive and poisonous pattern that always, really ALWAYS has been following when I open up and threatens the last good thing I have that is supposed to be an anchor right now. And on top of all, some actually supposedly good news came in from a friend but I can't be happy for them instead it really pulls me down because the topic reminds me of my health issues that are kinda related... And as I currently have no one to talk to because my tongue is venomous and I just ruin everone elses minds, I have to rant it out to strangers in the internet. Maybe the more creative writing approach I took in the beginning is at least somewhat enjoyable to read. It was kind inspired by this song... https://youtu.be/FK3TDHnD1_0?list=RDFK3TDHnD1_0

#biosecurity #biosafety #bioweapons #mirrorlife #mirrocells #biomolecules #cells #biology #threats #ThreatResearch #existential_threat #Doomsday #Biotechnology #microbiology #Immunology #biochemistry #Synthetic_Biology #bioengineering #ethics https://edition.cnn.com/2025/10/17/science/mirror-cell-life-dangers

Will there be Economic Chaos in November, when neither SNAP/EBT or Section 8 are paying for MILLIONS of people who don't work, never saved or who refuse to better themselves? Will we be overloaded with videos either begging for money? Demanding money? Or threatening Regular Taxpayers if we don't keep giving these poor wonderful, grateful, people of color, Illegals and fat White Girls money? There is crazy change coming our way this November...Stay ready and strapped because many will use it as an excuse to rob or steal.

#CEO #CEOs #Bunker #postapocalyptic #DOOMSDAY #Doomsdayiscoming #shelter #Billionairesbunker #Zuckerberg #Sutskever #AI #AGI #artificial_intelligence #technology #Silicon_Valley #Musk #Altman #threat #existentialism https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cly17834524o

20 bikers refused to leave a dying veteran's hospital room even when security threatened to arrest them all. Old Jim had been dying alone for three weeks, no visitors, no family, just a forgotten Marine in a VA hospital bed counting his last breaths. But when a young nurse posted on Facebook that this 89 year-old veteran who'd fought at Iwo Jima was going to die without a single person holding his hand, something extraordinary happened that had the entire hospital staff in tears.

#AI #artificiallintelligence #biology #virus #viruses #biopunk #bioweapons #Biohazard #Biotechnology #biotech #pathogens #DNA #biohacking #biohack #bacteria #Military #MilitaryTech #germs #genome_protocol #genome #genetics #threat https://www.testbiotech.org/en/news/ai-designed-viruses-created-for-the-first-time/

#AI #artificialgeneralintelligence #artificialintelligence #threat #existentialism #Humanity #machines #Military https://www.windowscentral.com/artificial-intelligence/microsoft-ai-chief-warns-military-grade-intervention

#AI #artificialgeneralintelligence #artificilaintelligence #Robots #threat #Skynet #ExMachina #Terminator https://www.yahoo.com/news/articles/experts-predict-superintelligent-ai-could-222530452.html

Unfortunatelly my Toby has a agressive tumor on his leg... monday will to more exames to see if the tumor has already spread through his body... no easy decions... to operate his leg he has to do chemotherapy and hope that the cancer reduces... but only if the results of analisys show tha the cancer will be affected by chemo.. if not... we have 2 choices... amputate the leg... or leavit... and start threating him with medicine to ease the pain that he migth have... and give him tehe best life quality possible.. my heart his twice broken... broken because i will miss him ... and broken because he came to us some months affer my dad passed away with cancer... and he became my mothers companion...and it will devastating for her... not the passing... but the absence of his presence... because for 8 years he followed her everywhere.. and everywhere she looks... she will be reminded off him.. i will too.. sorry for venting... but it's been couple rough days.... 😢