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Nice to meet you! I am Darcy.
First of all thank you for reading my profile! Not many people take te time for that, but I very much appreciate that you do!
In the following I will not list the things I do and do not like, no, that would make it to easy for you and you wouldn't get to know me at all. I'd rather just speak my mind and tell you a few things about me and you may figure out yourself what kind of person I am, and what kinds of things I like.
Asking a question about it is a good conversations starter btw. please feel free to do so, because I hate nothing more than smalltalk and messages that start with "Hey how are you, whats up?" will not be replied to. It has nothing to do with being narrow minded and not appreciating ploliteniess, I do. I just have other reasons for not liking smalltalk. You may ask about it if you want. =)
Also I do NOT like non serious flirting NOR sending around pictures of certain body parts... If I wanna se a mans "Joy stick" I'd be on a different site, thank you very much.
I'm a bit old schooled and just a hopeless romantic.

So now that this is out of the room here is a bit more about me. I am very much of a nerd. I have a Master's degree in Biotechnology and work as a protein biologist (yes that means I know how the different vaccines work and I will not halt from explaining it in dertail if necessary) and my job is my passion, I really enjoy what I am doing for a living! Because of that passion I am also a little bit of a witch and certainly have a green thumb. Beware I know a lot of poisonous things :D:D:D

Aside from that I am a very creative person, I love to do all kind of things that involve crafting things with my own two hands. I like to say that my paintbrushes are magic wands ;)
I also love music and play different kinds of instruments. But I am not living in the last century I also do my fair share of video gaming and am a huge nerd in that field too.

Hmm what else is there to say about me...
I am actually pretty shy in real life but the mask of anonymity the internet provides makes me less shy online so I may appear a little differently in conversation online. I think my shy side is also pretty much reflected in my interests. I don't really like festivals and huge concerts because its noisy and a lot of strangers are there. I am no party person and certainly not a "social butterfly". To most I appear cold and uninterested at first because I prefer to silently observe first before approaching. Also I hate introducing myself to others in real life. I prefer to be introduced or not having to make the first step. I just hate approaching people. I'm one of those bubble people that are happy inside their bubble and hate to leave their bubble alone. I need an enptional support person to leave my cave :D

Now that was already a lot for the start. I guess you may know now what kind of person I am and hopefully you have an idea what to talk about if you want to chat with me. =)

If not just ask my what my favourite enzyme is! You won't be hit with silence...
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  • Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed.
    Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen...
    I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here.
    I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.
    Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed. Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen... I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here. I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.
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  • I thought I'd finally have time to draw and try doing inktober again. But for some reason I can't wind down and relax. My hands rush through the sketch as if I had to be somewhere and I can't get lost in my artwork and escape. It's so frustrating and aggravating which leads to mistakes and me hating tie pictures in the end. why can't my mind settle down?! I just wanted to draw
    I was already disappointed yesterday because my tablet didn't arrive and now today is not fun either
    I thought I'd finally have time to draw and try doing inktober again. But for some reason I can't wind down and relax. My hands rush through the sketch as if I had to be somewhere and I can't get lost in my artwork and escape. It's so frustrating and aggravating which leads to mistakes and me hating tie pictures in the end. 😭why can't my mind settle down?! I just wanted to draw 😥 I was already disappointed yesterday because my tablet didn't arrive and now today is not fun either 😫
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  • That feeling when Finally having time to sit down and actually rest with nothing to prepare or plan feels like submerging your ears in the water at a loud swimming pool...

    I have really reached my limit this week mentally and physically. I often struggle with post summer burnout in September/October but this week I had to function perfectly during work and so many social obligations whereas I had things to prepare for or join in. I didn't get any real me time to unwind because I had to run errands and prepare things til late in the night. Never getting to bed before 3 or 4 am... I ran on sleep deprivation an burnout. Yesterday I was close to the point of breaking down exhaustion. I felt my knees almost give out in the store... Now it's finally over I have finally time for me with nothing to prepare for others. I will probably have a hardcore social shutdown but thb I need it
    That feeling when Finally having time to sit down and actually rest with nothing to prepare or plan feels like submerging your ears in the water at a loud swimming pool... I have really reached my limit this week mentally and physically. I often struggle with post summer burnout in September/October but this week I had to function perfectly during work and so many social obligations whereas I had things to prepare for or join in. I didn't get any real me time to unwind because I had to run errands and prepare things til late in the night. Never getting to bed before 3 or 4 am... I ran on sleep deprivation an burnout. Yesterday I was close to the point of breaking down exhaustion. I felt my knees almost give out in the store... Now it's finally over I have finally time for me with nothing to prepare for others. I will probably have a hardcore social shutdown but thb I need it 😅
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  • Something tells me the next album Berenika will release is going to be incredible . This is the third banger they recently released and I'm already obsessed with all 3 of them
    Something tells me the next album Berenika will release is going to be incredible 🥰 . This is the third banger they recently released and I'm already obsessed with all 3 of them 🤩
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  • Oh my goth the new options to react to posts are sooooo freaking cute!!! I hope they stay permanently and are not only a halloween feature!
    Oh my goth the new options to react to posts are sooooo freaking cute!!! I hope they stay permanently and are not only a halloween feature!
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    Goth Vibes
    On Fire
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  • When that one friend who sees you as free therapist asks you for a call in the evening and now you are considering doin overtime on a job you currently don't enjoy...
    When that one friend who sees you as free therapist asks you for a call in the evening and now you are considering doin overtime on a job you currently don't enjoy...
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  • I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days.
    Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me.
    I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...
    I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days. Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me. I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...
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  • Another day of endless boredom at work. Being underwhelmed/underchallenged and having condescending colleagues is an awful combination. I'm developing the worst imposter syndrome and start believing that I am on the sidelines because I'm useless. I want least Year back I'd rather have the stress and project burden because that at least feels productive and successful.
    I'm really work depressed lately. I'm seriously considering of looking for a new job...maybe do phD after all maybe that's the sign I was waiting for.
    Another day of endless boredom at work. Being underwhelmed/underchallenged and having condescending colleagues is an awful combination. I'm developing the worst imposter syndrome and start believing that I am on the sidelines because I'm useless. I want least Year back I'd rather have the stress and project burden because that at least feels productive and successful. I'm really work depressed lately. I'm seriously considering of looking for a new job...maybe do phD after all maybe that's the sign I was waiting for.
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  • Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

    Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
    On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
    It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

    Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
    I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...
    Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed.... Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed... On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust. It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession... Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason.... I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...
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  • Ok shout-out to Berenika for releasing this funky new single that saved my Monday! This energetic tune brought back my vigor.
    Bye bye post vacation blues. HELLo party mood!
    This will probably be my get ready in the morning song for the rest of this month
    https://youtu.be/JY9D2fEh-K0?list=RDJY9D2fEh-K0
    Ok shout-out to Berenika for releasing this funky new single that saved my Monday! This energetic tune brought back my vigor. Bye bye post vacation blues. HELLo party mood! This will probably be my get ready in the morning song for the rest of this month 😅 https://youtu.be/JY9D2fEh-K0?list=RDJY9D2fEh-K0
    Dark Love
    On Fire
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