I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days.
Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me.
I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...

unwiped piss on a pussy glistens the same way butter on a lobster tail

#house #deep_house #music
https://youtu.be/yMSx9Lt8rNg?list=RDznXOufNaIOs

i dont offer explanation and i dont ask for it

unless i need you to explain you to yourself

wre right this forme


a test
nd
your result
a trick question
answer a trap
no way out
only more tests
if yo7 catch on
remember
fail them all
nd
how
theyll catchon
2u
dont be broken
write twice a day
no hands
no womannerisms
all day anyway

On september 6th im going to see falling in reverse with slaughter to prevail and sleep theory. Unfortunately hollywood undead is there too. But its worth it.