Happiness and good Fortune are like a golden sand flowing into an hourglass of life sometimes there are black grains representing the bad things that sometimes happen but for most they are tuning to gold once they reach the majority of gold. But for some people the sand has more black grains than most, and some of those tend to give their few golden grains to others to help them turn their black to gold, which often leave the givers with overpowering obsidian sand that often turns new gold to black. And if they ask others for just a speckle of gold in return to help Turing the black to gold, they often have to beg for it or end up turning the others sand black just by opening their their hourglass. I am certainly one of the latter people. My body and mind is filled with poisonous black sand and my tongue turns it into venom injecting it to others whenever reach for support or comfort. I have realized a very concerning pattern that gives me the worst anxiety right now. I'm poisoning the last golden grain of sand whenever I open my heart and don't swallow my feelings for once. I should finally stop trying and go back to being the quiet listener that gives her golden grains to others and fights against the black by herself. That will spare me from a lot of feelings of disappointment, and anxiety and guilt about upsetting others by voicing when I'm being upset or disappointed. I'll just suck it up and be too forgiving for my own good the sake of harmony. How sad is that? I have become scared of being upset because it upsets others and I feel guilty then. Can one be more of a peoplepleaser just to not end up all alone? Today was a terrible day on so many levels, not only was I still feeling upset, I was also anxious to the point of barely being able to breathe because I had I realized this destructive and poisonous pattern that always, really ALWAYS has been following when I open up and threatens the last good thing I have that is supposed to be an anchor right now. And on top of all, some actually supposedly good news came in from a friend but I can't be happy for them instead it really pulls me down because the topic reminds me of my health issues that are kinda related... And as I currently have no one to talk to because my tongue is venomous and I just ruin everone elses minds, I have to rant it out to strangers in the internet. Maybe the more creative writing approach I took in the beginning is at least somewhat enjoyable to read. It was kind inspired by this song... https://youtu.be/FK3TDHnD1_0?list=RDFK3TDHnD1_0

Wow what a shitty End for a vacation. Successfully ruined another persons day again just by trying to open up and share my fears and emotions in hopes to clear my anxiety that I had since yesterday... But noo triggered somewhat of a fight and anxiety for the other side too. Aaaaaand thats why I usually bottle things up. When I talk about it I piss people off or make them sad and that worsens my anxiety. Even when I thought hard about how I say it and what I say, it always goes down the wrong pipe and ends with the worst outcome... Why do I even try again ana again it always ends in disappointment: either I'm a bad trigger or I'm as important as fucking chairs. After all im only good for listening not for talking about feelings. I just muck things up... I feel like such a human failure...

Sorry about that out-of-line slur earlier. I meant to say "raging self-centered cunt" instead. Hope that clears up any confusion or hurt feelings.

Great feelings💦🥵🥵🥵💦

Feelings? Tf are those Only thing I wanna feel is what that Necro mouth do

PSA: Trolls & spam Reading the room I get the feeling most people think this place is dead, I'll agree! I also see alot of whiners in feed talking about spam and trolls, pucker up buttercup! There's nothing more fun than people with retarded takes, and a troll's reply, maybe if people were not so vapid, unorginal, and eager to turn every part of the internet into a fucking hugbox maybe you, and the places you go would be more fun. Also what's with all this feelings matter bullshit; people say mean things, reply with banter, learn to take a fucking joke, or ingore people. If that's impossible for you, fuck off, I suggest a gag, blindfold, and isolation as the real world is the same. LEARN TO TAKE A FUCKING JOKE!

I'm back brothers and sisters, some are thinking oh no and some are thinking oh yeah! Eirther way I'm back to mess up the feed, and bully the cry bullies! Time to add chaos and hurt feelings to the feed!

Good for her!. So courageous and fierce. The average Joe Six Pack seems to forget that entertainers have feelings, too. Their own struggles and a cross to bear. Godspeed, Miss Swift! https://variety.com/2025/music/news/taylor-swift-buys-rights-first-six-albums-shamrock-1236413964/

#men Men HAVE feelings...

You know you are talented when you hurt your own feelings lol.