I am bummed, depressed, haven't been feeling well for quite some time, and I am blank as a fart when it has been dealing with my creative endeavors. I have been under lots of stress, putting up with all the bulls**t from others and living in this sewer trap of a rural town, as I despise the surrounding counties and want out of this state and area so badly.
I fear my life is over. I'm 47 and will be 50 in three years as I wept a few times over that. I have a degree that I feel I cannot make use of, I want this other degree, and I feel I do not get the kind of support I need financially, and I feel I have been kind of neglected emotionally and mentally lately.
It is hard for me to talk about things as it is, and it seems when I attempt to vent or express my troublesome feelings and such...no one is to reply back or I do not get any replies. But it seems there are some people who want me to stop and drop everything for them when they need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, but when I have these same needs and such I get blown off like a fart in the wind, no one replies back, and I'm left feeling stupid, hurt, and having this belief that noone really cares how I feel, what I want, or that lending me their ear or shoulder Is a burden to them when I need someone.
It's a very lonely world. And I feel like I have no answers or know what the next step is.
Sorry, I just had to get this off my chest. This is the only site I feel free to do so.

I was about to post this long introduction on my page as a post for people to talk with me about Jesus where I talked about myself and explained a lot about Jesus but the devil is a liar trying to upset me because when I went to select the text and copy paste it to secure it I clicked to select all the text then hit my right clicker on my mouse and all the text got erased and replaced by a Youtube link text I had copied and pasted previously for my Youtube channel for my links on here because I was editing my page changing all my details for God.
I am sitting here all distressed because trying to figure out how to recover the text but I know God recorded it if I get back or not and I will be repeating what I wrote anyway as I talk to people about God.
The devil can't stop my writing for God and reaching people but when you make a mistake the devil thinks he wins but he doesn't because God is in control over all.

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HAhahahaha LOVE has to give way Too feelings of MASSIVE SELF CONFIDENCE

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Me, when I have to deal with stupid common people...

So the saints were beating falcons 41-17 and the saints intercept the ball run it back and need one yard to score....there is 1 minute left and the saints coach says take a knee....the QB asks the players what they want to do...they decide get a TD...they do that and win 48-17 and the falcons coach cries like a bitch saying it was disrespectful....cry me a river. It's football not "mercyball" and they gave the TD to someone who never scored a TD before so it was a great moment for that player. I love that they did it. Hell if the falcons did it to the saints I would agree with it. If time is left keep fucking playing. Fuck sparing feelings....it's competition....it's not like they ran up to the other team and talked shit after. Truly this is actually hilarious...."no I wanted to lose by 24....not 31....how dare you beat us by more!!

It's been interesting times certainly, I'm living near Madrid and after these holidays the feelings of loneliness have increased tons, I wish I had more friends around, I'm Colombian, dj & producer.

How my 2023 is going:

- heartbroken by a girl I had feelings for for a year
- got disrespected in every possible way at 2 other jobs and barely got paid enough to make ends meet
- been on the edge of starvation
- 3 mental breakdowns
- almost ended up being homeless for the first time in my life
- lost 2 very important people in my life that I considered very good friends for 8 years because they prioritize their personal gains over me
- ended up spending most of my time alone as I barely have friends I can rely on and I will be spending the New Year's Eve in my bed because of it
- financial struggles
- somehow managed to get my guitar back so I can at last play again
- got myself a well-paying job

Yeah, I'm done here. 🫡
Happy 2024 y'all.

Urgh. The next Two days will require a lot of patience and swallowing my pride and anger and hurt in order to maintain the peace.
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Let's see how long it takes this year until I'm asked to me "more considerate" and "stop being hurt" because someone has metal issues and "can't help being like this" while they trampled all over me, Knowing I also have mental issues, without any mercy or consideration for my feelings and my mental health issues
Holidays are fun...