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  • It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force.

    What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.'

    I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?'

    Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.
    It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force. What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.' I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?' Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.
    Goth Vibes
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  • Do you know that feeling when, after a good time, the world comes crashing down even harder than expected?
    I wish it were just the blues after one of the best times I've ever had, but somehow the shit just keeps piling up every day.

    Not only do I have a lot of work to do, but I also have to compensate for three people, and instead of support, I only get statements that downplay the actual workload, and I just end up angry, exhausted, and “done” with my job.

    On top of that, there is a current family disaster that I am currently unable to deal with mentally, so I am completely withdrawing.
    Unfortunately, it is so severe that it completely paralyzes me.
    I want to be there for my family, but I can't.
    My head is screaming to escape, but I don't know where to go anymore.
    With every breath I take, it feels as if the air is made of lead.
    Do you know that feeling when, after a good time, the world comes crashing down even harder than expected? I wish it were just the blues after one of the best times I've ever had, but somehow the shit just keeps piling up every day. Not only do I have a lot of work to do, but I also have to compensate for three people, and instead of support, I only get statements that downplay the actual workload, and I just end up angry, exhausted, and “done” with my job. On top of that, there is a current family disaster that I am currently unable to deal with mentally, so I am completely withdrawing. Unfortunately, it is so severe that it completely paralyzes me. I want to be there for my family, but I can't. My head is screaming to escape, but I don't know where to go anymore. With every breath I take, it feels as if the air is made of lead.
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  • Either I'm too stupid for social interactions or I'm just getting along with private social understandings a lot less lately than I already do.

    I really don't have many friends, which is a shame because I normally like company, but my last experiences with company or trying to socialize or make friends were more or less a disaster.
    I'm beginning to suspect that this is more of a primal human feeling of envy, not having many friends (greed for something more) when I look at the whole thing reflectively.

    It's just ridiculous how clear and open communication is thrown out the window and is seen as a strange, perverse kind of challenge to some people.
    Either I'm too stupid for social interactions or I'm just getting along with private social understandings a lot less lately than I already do. I really don't have many friends, which is a shame because I normally like company, but my last experiences with company or trying to socialize or make friends were more or less a disaster. I'm beginning to suspect that this is more of a primal human feeling of envy, not having many friends (greed for something more) when I look at the whole thing reflectively. It's just ridiculous how clear and open communication is thrown out the window and is seen as a strange, perverse kind of challenge to some people.
    Goth Vibes
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  • #book #books #BookTwitter #booklovers #BookReview #BooksWorthReading #BookWorm #USA #postapocalyptic #disaster #ecology
    https://reactormag.com/five-futures-where-the-us-ended-not-with-a-bang-but-a-whimper/
    #book #books #BookTwitter #booklovers #BookReview #BooksWorthReading #BookWorm #USA #postapocalyptic #disaster #ecology https://reactormag.com/five-futures-where-the-us-ended-not-with-a-bang-but-a-whimper/
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    Five Futures Where the US Ended Not With a Bang But a Whimper - Reactor
    Sometimes empires just kind of fall apart over time—no catastrophe required.
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  • #women #men #disasters #silence #solutions
    #women #men #disasters #silence #solutions
    Rotten Laughs
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  • #hurricane #Milton #disaster #simulation #weather #rain #flood #Florida #Tampa #Naples #WeatherChannel
    https://x.com/weatherchannel/status/1843666019245797864
    #hurricane #Milton #disaster #simulation #weather #rain #flood #Florida #Tampa #Naples #WeatherChannel https://x.com/weatherchannel/status/1843666019245797864
    I'm Dead
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  • #chernobyl #disaster #radioactive #nuclear_energy

    38 years and still counting...

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chernobyl_disaster
    #chernobyl #disaster #radioactive #nuclear_energy 38 years and still counting... https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chernobyl_disaster
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    Chernobyl disaster
    The Chernobyl disaster began on 26 April 1986 with the explosion of the No. 4 reactor of the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant, near the city of Pripyat in the north of the Ukrainian SSR, close to the border with the Byelorussian SSR, in the Soviet Union. It is one of only two nuclear energy accidents rated at seven—the maximum severity—on the International Nuclear Event Scale, the other being the 2011 Fukushima nuclear accident in Japan. The initial emergency response and subsequent mitigation efforts involved more than 500,000 personnel and cost an estimated 18 billion roubles—roughly US$68 billion in 2019, adjusted for inflation. It is considered the worst nuclear disaster in history. The accident occurred during a test of the steam turbine's ability to power the emergency feedwater pumps in the event of a simultaneous loss of external power and coolant pipe rupture. Following an accidental drop in reactor power...
    Goth Vibes
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  • My threads will be all inclusive as soon as I implement my No Goth Left Behind policy. My Trickle Down Emonomics plan was a disaster...I'll admit!
    My threads will be all inclusive as soon as I implement my No Goth Left Behind policy. My Trickle Down Emonomics plan was a disaster...I'll admit!
    Goth Vibes
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  • https://bsky.app/profile/beautifuldisaster.bsky.social
    https://bsky.app/profile/beautifuldisaster.bsky.social
    Goth Vibes
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  • #movies #disaster #death
    https://youtu.be/w4sNrd5N4fc
    #movies #disaster #death https://youtu.be/w4sNrd5N4fc
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