Either I'm too stupid for social interactions or I'm just getting along with private social understandings a lot less lately than I already do.

I really don't have many friends, which is a shame because I normally like company, but my last experiences with company or trying to socialize or make friends were more or less a disaster.
I'm beginning to suspect that this is more of a primal human feeling of envy, not having many friends (greed for something more) when I look at the whole thing reflectively.

It's just ridiculous how clear and open communication is thrown out the window and is seen as a strange, perverse kind of challenge to some people.