Bad Weather for over a week here in Portugal.... floods , devastation.. So sad to see that this country has given up on make it a good place to live.... Better put a " for rent" sign and let someonelse govern us...

Epstein Files dropped and almost every celebrity and politician is in it.
Trump isn't going to save you, Clinton isn't going to save you, Elon is definitely not gonna come save you, Jay Z isn't going to save you nor is Noam Chomsky and Stephen Hawking.
But nothing will be done, like always. We're in too deep. The world is too complacent and brainwashed with Door dash, Pornhub and all of its smaller partners, netflix, tiktok, instagram, YouTube, google, internet memes, chat gpt, videogames, drugs, weed, alcohol, meds and all your dumb fucking anime providing endless stimulation to make sure no one thinks for themselves or has any second to self reflect.
People care more about getting an orgasm, not being bored and being comfortable than doing anything about anything.
I for one welcome an alien race, or God, the universe or war to kill us all. Wash this planet of the worst species ever created.
Cleanse us of our wretched, putrid souls and end our suffering.

And fuck your politics if you don't believe any of this and think that your favorite president you suck off is not in any way part of this. They are. This is not a theory anymore.
The higher ups are pedophilic, child molesting, murdering cannibals.
Marquis De Sade called all of this out with the Libertines back in his day when he used to participate in these parties and orgies. He was imprisoned, though he was a fucking pervert as well, he at least had the balls to call it out so the world would know.
And the elite are mocking us. Laughing at us and watching the shit show we call our economy and society.
They're conspiring against us and always have been since the beginning of civilization.

And this is only the tip of the iceberg.
These are only the files that have been released. There's still a ton more that goes even deeper. I can write pages and pages about this shit. I read the black book back in 2020 and i told people that modern presidents and politicians and celebrities were in there but no one wanted to believe it, especially when it came to Trump. He is not on your side or for the people, let alone, poor people. You'd have to be blind, dumb, and ignorant to believe he even cares about you.
I am tired of this left wing, right wing bullshit when both wings of the government are part of the same bird and both parties are in bed together, keeping us down and out.

God is not coming to punish them or save us.

Stop trying to excuse the behavior of these rich politicians/pedophiles.
Stop blaming the world's problems on immigrants, racial minorities, lgbtq, and people who look and believe different from Christian, and heterosexual belief systems.
Your enemy is not regular people who believe in the left or regular people who believe in the right;
Our enemies are the cocksuckers that built and rigged the system, aka, the billionaires, politicians, the corporations and the banks.
But keep pointing your fingers at your neighbors and thinking they're the ones destroying your life and that you're one of the good guys who knows the truth.
You keep believing that...
Stay asleep.

Anyways, i have said my piece.
Keep your eyes closed, your mind closed, keep getting high and drunk, keep posting memes, keep thirst trapping and simping.
Carry on.
Let us all walk hand in hand, obliviously to our self annihilation as the hideous, fucked up, delusional children of an indifferent God we all are.

This is so discourageing! Of all the job offers that I can find none are Jobs that I would actually wanna take if I actually did get the offer, because all require commuting over an hour or moving to I city that I would never wanna live in. This is just downright depressing! In the past 3 weeks I have not even seen one offer that was in my current location or even close by. I just want a new job not an entire life re-orientation!

It is just so sad that we live in such a career-driven double standard society where it is totally normalized that as a young person, you HAVE to be ready give up your ENTIRE LIFE and the place you picked to be your home ANYTIME to find a new job. But on the same time you are expected to be ready to settle and have a family from 30 onwards. And with a family you are often still required to move your entire family to a new place for a new job and it's totally normalized!

And overall economy is just shit and the field I work in is not doing well despite the fact that it was flourishing during the pandemic.

I blame everything on Merz at this point because I need a scapegoat to vent my anger!

Sneak peak of my first Black Metal song
I call it:
Pinkie Pie Do You Believe In Satan?If You Do Flip The Crosses Upsidedown!
Verse 1:

The color white is colorless, it is colorless from rejection, left to be told that is has no color.

The color white.

White is a color.

We are going to die tonight,

White is white.

Rejected from the light of colors the color white is a rejection of love.

White you have been rejected.

The color of white you have been a rejected color of carelessness like the animal of polar bear.

Just like the polar bear you are white.

Polar bear you are white.

White of bears.

White if you are recognized as not a color you fall close to being recognized as a bear of polar activities.

The color of bear the act of polar.

It as a bear show a color of white.

White it shows.

White it hisses like a demon.

Polar bears are white.

White is a bear color, white is a bear thing, and white is a polar thing.

The color of polar bears is white.

Now smear the bear into the pavement by a semi-truck.

Kill the bear with pride.

Kill it with a painful force.

It is now flat.

It is now flat.

Flat it is.

Flat.

Chorus 1:

White stands high above the flat bear.

Flat bear you are pretty.

You are still pretty.

Yes you are still a polar.

You are still a bear.

You are still flat.

The moon stands over you in sadness as you were gone.

Gone you are no longer plump but now like paper.

You should see it above.

It is still pretty.

You are the best white flat bear that had an accident.

The laughter it shows.

#JamesRansone #suicide #IT #actor
Sad news...
https://philstarlife.com/celebrity/772879-it-chapter-two-actor-james-ransone-dies#

The enemies of our people will not keep us from celebrating our faith. They murder us, condemn us, and go out of their way to marginalize us. We will stand strong, up against an evil older than antiquity. Even with the tragedy and saddened heart, we will continue with our holiday spirit. Shalom aleichem.

https://www.jpost.com/diaspora/article-880251

#RebeccaHeineman #Heineman #videogames #Videogame #programmer
Sad news...
https://www.engadget.com/gaming/interplay-co-founder-rebecca-heineman-dies-133000414.html

Happiness and good Fortune are like a golden sand flowing into an hourglass of life sometimes there are black grains representing the bad things that sometimes happen but for most they are tuning to gold once they reach the majority of gold.
But for some people the sand has more black grains than most, and some of those tend to give their few golden grains to others to help them turn their black to gold, which often leave the givers with overpowering obsidian sand that often turns new gold to black. And if they ask others for just a speckle of gold in return to help Turing the black to gold, they often have to beg for it or end up turning the others sand black just by opening their their hourglass.

I am certainly one of the latter people. My body and mind is filled with poisonous black sand and my tongue turns it into venom injecting it to others whenever reach for support or comfort.
I have realized a very concerning pattern that gives me the worst anxiety right now. I'm poisoning the last golden grain of sand whenever I open my heart and don't swallow my feelings for once.
I should finally stop trying and go back to being the quiet listener that gives her golden grains to others and fights against the black by herself. That will spare me from a lot of feelings of disappointment, and anxiety and guilt about upsetting others by voicing when I'm being upset or disappointed. I'll just suck it up and be too forgiving for my own good the sake of harmony.
How sad is that? I have become scared of being upset because it upsets others and I feel guilty then. Can one be more of a peoplepleaser just to not end up all alone?

Today was a terrible day on so many levels, not only was I still feeling upset, I was also anxious to the point of barely being able to breathe because I had I realized this destructive and poisonous pattern that always, really ALWAYS has been following when I open up and threatens the last good thing I have that is supposed to be an anchor right now.
And on top of all, some actually supposedly good news came in from a friend but I can't be happy for them instead it really pulls me down because the topic reminds me of my health issues that are kinda related...
And as I currently have no one to talk to because my tongue is venomous and I just ruin everone elses minds, I have to rant it out to strangers in the internet. Maybe the more creative writing approach I took in the beginning is at least somewhat enjoyable to read. It was kind inspired by this song...
https://youtu.be/FK3TDHnD1_0?list=RDFK3TDHnD1_0

So I got talked to at work again,today. Because I said some stuff about my neighbors dog as well as a black metal artist I enjoy listening to,so i guss I can't even have freedom of speech at my own job.....sad. Might be switching departments but that probably won't help....have to see what happens,the first time was even more dumb...it was over the fact I had a colonoscopy appointment and people are asking about it,I kept on saying surgery because I get confused and info mixed up sometimes. So when I mentioned the correct reason I was met with extreme immature reactions,we'll see how much longer I'm at the Front End before switching departments.