Unfortunatelly im going to have to do medical procedure on my prostate.. cause it's blocking my uretra.. causing me to have bladder and urinary issues... it sucks :X and i just hope that it will fix my problem and no to have to redo the procedure 5 years later or so...

Yeap .. still alive...health still shitty but.... still alive :)

to be honest... i know when i die i will miss doing a bunch of shit in my life... but to be honest...last 3 years have been a shit....

feeling a bit hungry :X should go eat an apple

Still alive.... health still shitty... but.... hanging on

Unfortunatelly my Toby has a agressive tumor on his leg... monday will to more exames to see if the tumor has already spread through his body... no easy decions... to operate his leg he has to do chemotherapy and hope that the cancer reduces... but only if the results of analisys show tha the cancer will be affected by chemo.. if not... we have 2 choices... amputate the leg... or leavit... and start threating him with medicine to ease the pain that he migth have... and give him tehe best life quality possible.. my heart his twice broken... broken because i will miss him ... and broken because he came to us some months affer my dad passed away with cancer... and he became my mothers companion...and it will devastating for her... not the passing... but the absence of his presence... because for 8 years he followed her everywhere.. and everywhere she looks... she will be reminded off him.. i will too.. sorry for venting... but it's been couple rough days.... 😢

Stressed..... im tired of my mom beeing so damm cheap! Toby has a tumor on is leg.. he have to go to a vet hospital...its kind of "far"... starts complaying of the money we'll spent... fuck the money! jizzzzzzzzzzzzzasssss!! i wont take it to my grave.. neither will she! damm it! she pisses me off with the goddam money!!! i know she worked her ass off... so did my dad.. so we can have some financial "oxigen ball" but... fuck! 77 y old and still counting everysingle expense! it's ridiculous sometimes! im not a spender... i save what i can.. but fuck...not getting paranoid of couting every fuckin expense i make!

[Obsolescence] this one :D

monday another trip to the hospital... gonna ask for a MRI for my back

RIP :( we all go.. but.. this one makes me sad.... i find joy that i got to see Out of Africa ... 7 oscar wining movie... where he and mery streep stared in this lovelly movie...