Looong post...(Sorry I just need to dump this emotion somewhere. I don't have any friends left to dump it on...)

I think I don't enjoy spending time with my friend anymore. And this scaes me because I recently lost another good freind due to growing apart. And I don't want to lose this one too... I miss being careless just doing fun things forgetting the wories of the world for a while.

Today was not fun at all. Nothing at all like I imagined or how we planned the day: Just 2 gilfriends doing mundane girl things like shopping going for drinks and having a good time. That was the plan.

No, instead I spend the entire day people pleasing and enduring socializing with one of her old university friends we met, because she seemed to have a good time and I really wanted her to have a good time & fully enjoy this weekend as she has a lot of other troubles at home & I want to be her safe space/happy place.
I tolerated not doing any of the things we had planned, just to end the day with her emotion dumping on me how shitty and disappointing the reunion with her uni freind was and how no one wants to be friends with her if they don't benefit from her in one way or another...So I was the emotional Dumpster...

I am not meaning to blame her but she is doing the same thing to me: I am always her emotional dumpster who listends and gives advice. So she benefits from me. And all the things I want to do, the plans we made before are overthrown. By some kind of drama every time.
Last time we saw each other was the same: It was completely ruined, all plans were overthrown because of her bf making drama and me having to be the should to cry on and fix her up for most of the day. I am sick of spending "quality time" like this. I am always the one who's getting the short end and the disappointment.

And now I'm sitting here crying in frustration and disappointment beacue I really miss having my friend around and I want the carefree time back when we did the things we planned and had a good time: Go shopping and try on silly things for fun, go hiking and fool around in the autumn leaves, forget all troubles, laugh and just enjoy the simplest things in company of our comfort person.
All I want is to have something like this again:

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Bats scare the hell out of me but somehow I think they´re extremely cute. Is it true they can spread the rabies?. Because near my appartment there is the University of Medicine. Huge and tall building and they seem to nest there. But from time to time you can see during the day baby bats who maybe are stranded and they couldn´t go back home and they´re left there to die. And I am thinking about saving some of them and maybe keep them or in due time retrieve them to freedom.

College administrators and law enforcement seem to be showing restraint if you ask me. No water cannons, flash grenades, or expelling people from the university like in the 60's.

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Guys any suggestions on how to spend my time away from home, that won't cost me a dime. One of the best things about university was not being around my family and until somebody hires me and I save up money I'm stuck with them. Should I spend the day working out or something? Walk around a lake? Spend hours on end at the gym? Stay at the library and not come back until it's time to go to sleep? I took so many steps in the right direction and each day I'm here feels like one step back. What do you guys suggest?

LOL it's funny but going by the majority of University graduates I've talked to....disturbingly accurate.

I think I will start University. Even if I am like a "grandma" around all the younglings there.

I never liked school. Bullies and useless "knowledge" I would never use in life made me think I was wasting time inside that building. That´s why I finished school one year early. Had to fake a "work license" (done by my father as if I was working with him) in order for a school aimed to help adults to finish high school would accept me.

I wanted to work and have my own money back then. And I´ve been doing that since then.

But now.. I feel an irrational need to go and study something. Not sure if to make a living out of it. But maybe to learn more about stuff which interests me.

So..the question is...
Is it ever too late to start a career?....