More music in the works,honoring to be creating a new song later this week when I have the time. Been working on some art stuff as well between trips to to the clinic. I finally got results back,and they are negative. Looking forward to starting sewing up again soon and working on my new jacket.

Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...

Urgh post vacation blues hit hard. Why has working become so boring?! meetings this morning were like...

So.....sadly it looks like the other social network, Gone Gothic is finally Gone.

I feel like I wasted this day on the couch...but somehow I don't feel like sewing or drawing and it's too warm for cosplaying... All I did was sorting my tiktok audios and hoping that I get to Film next weekend.
It's also too warm to workout and I feel guilty about it... Fucking orthorexia...

Before I leave time to break out the classics. Replace school with work; its the same pointless waste of time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZwxTX2pWmw&list=RDbZwxTX2pWmw&start_radio=1

https://youtu.be/Fx2FIjNznrE?si=mvMpFPQ1UBfO9VUR

This song plays in my head when i see that hot coworker walking up to talk to me.

"Oh my my, danger danger"

Last try to get this picture upload to work...
Here are some Impressions of my first time at Mera Luna festival, this has been my dream festival since I was 14/15 Y/o when I got into the Gothic lifestyle. I never got to go til now, because I had no one to go with, as all my friends were not into the goth scene and was too anxious to go alone (also my mum wouldn't let me go alone ).
So I was super hyped to go there with my love crow