So...finally have returned from vacation. Was far up north this time,got to stay at a amazeing cabin style house,did some swimming,pool shooting and rural beach workouts. Traveled into the city for some excellent BBQ and visited an aquarium as I have not been to one in like 5 years or more. The vacation was cut a few days short due to some family drama on my cousins side of the family,a major misunderstanding of boundaries that changed family dynamics so the next family vacation will probably be a bit smaller. But overall much needed and enjoyed !

Contrary to my original plan of having a 'lazy Saturday', I spontaneously spent the whole day out and about on my bike.
Simply to escape the city and enjoy the rural idyll that surrounds the outermost city limits. The further I cycled, the less I wanted to go back.
It may sound strange, but resting next to a cow pasture and smelling the typical (perhaps not exactly inviting) smell of cattle somehow gives me a nostalgic feeling of childhood and home.
Even though I like living in a city and enjoying its benefits, I often miss the quiet, sleepy afternoons and evenings in a village.

#Army_National_Guard #militia #USA #United_States #military #government #Virginia #antigovernment

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I am bummed, depressed, haven't been feeling well for quite some time, and I am blank as a fart when it has been dealing with my creative endeavors. I have been under lots of stress, putting up with all the bulls**t from others and living in this sewer trap of a rural town, as I despise the surrounding counties and want out of this state and area so badly.
I fear my life is over. I'm 47 and will be 50 in three years as I wept a few times over that. I have a degree that I feel I cannot make use of, I want this other degree, and I feel I do not get the kind of support I need financially, and I feel I have been kind of neglected emotionally and mentally lately.
It is hard for me to talk about things as it is, and it seems when I attempt to vent or express my troublesome feelings and such...no one is to reply back or I do not get any replies. But it seems there are some people who want me to stop and drop everything for them when they need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, but when I have these same needs and such I get blown off like a fart in the wind, no one replies back, and I'm left feeling stupid, hurt, and having this belief that noone really cares how I feel, what I want, or that lending me their ear or shoulder Is a burden to them when I need someone.
It's a very lonely world. And I feel like I have no answers or know what the next step is.
Sorry, I just had to get this off my chest. This is the only site I feel free to do so.

#forest #rural #fantasy #isolation #mountains