If you don't like J-rock, I can't help you.

Instead of sleeping in on Sunday, I wake up at 6 AM like a retard. Haha brain go brrrrrr.

ConsumedByDarkness InfernalHate CristallDarcy Update: wasn't burned on a stake but was kinda the center of attention with my more or less unusual appearance (yup dressed up goth af) and was kinda filled up with wine like Röhrich on a heater installation :D

I have been thinking of getting a facial piercing for a while now.. Do you think a labret would suit me ? Put a fake one on my lip a few weeks ago and took a picture. But I can't decide of I like or hate it. I kinda hate seeing myself in most of the selfies I take, except for cosplay pics in which im literally not myself. I have been struggling with body dismorphia and self-esteem a lot lately...so I need a confidence boost...

I'll tell you what the problem is, InfernalHate. You tag the same 3 people every post. The rest of us peasants feel left out, somehow not important enough to play in your Schutzstaffel games. Just being real here. The Finns and Argentines are only in it for the likes!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIRnecKnYgo

600+ applications sent in like 3 weeks and barely any reply. Getting ghosted by HR is fun, 10/10 would recommend....

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

I like the cut of her jib.

Dressed like the chorus of a song I haven’t written yet.

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