Feeling lonely all day

Ok feeling less bitchy how is everyone lol

Feeling lonely

Took a nap and woke up feeling depressed. Thanks brain.

That feelings when you finish a series or a book and it was so good it leaves you practically purposeless because you got emotionally absorbed and committed to the story that you can’t start on anything else for a while because you need to get over it all first...
I love and hate this feeling.

Don't you just love the feeling of an upcoming summer storm? That slight unsettling mixture of of awe and fear. As the sky darkens and the wind picks up. Dark tall clouds building fortresses in the sky. And we stand safe and sound behind the window. sheltered by brick and glass and yet we get thils slight tingle, a nervousness deep in our throat, a creeping uneasiness. A fear that is unnecessary as we are sheltered in our houses and yet it still haunting us like a promordial instnct telling us to run and hide for this might be a calamity....
I love this thrill! It's powerful inspiring!

#diarrhea #feeling

I've been feeling really good and energetic since the weekend (I haven't felt this good in a long time :))
I really had a lot of fun in my personal space this weekend and can finally get on with cleaning up and optimizing my apartment as I was finally able to pick up a work table that I've been meaning to pick up for months.
A really great start to the week :)

Got chatting to some goth girl as friends on Meta Horizon Worlds 2 months ago, she has a boyfriend and been with him for 14 years, they also have kids together however she told me that she has feelings for me just over a week ago which was awkward. I told her that I don't feel the same way and that i wouldn’t even date someone who would leave their partner for someone else. There's a lot of red flags so I've blocked her. I do seem to attract some right characters lol.

I am bummed, depressed, haven't been feeling well for quite some time, and I am blank as a fart when it has been dealing with my creative endeavors. I have been under lots of stress, putting up with all the bulls**t from others and living in this sewer trap of a rural town, as I despise the surrounding counties and want out of this state and area so badly.
I fear my life is over. I'm 47 and will be 50 in three years as I wept a few times over that. I have a degree that I feel I cannot make use of, I want this other degree, and I feel I do not get the kind of support I need financially, and I feel I have been kind of neglected emotionally and mentally lately.
It is hard for me to talk about things as it is, and it seems when I attempt to vent or express my troublesome feelings and such...no one is to reply back or I do not get any replies. But it seems there are some people who want me to stop and drop everything for them when they need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, but when I have these same needs and such I get blown off like a fart in the wind, no one replies back, and I'm left feeling stupid, hurt, and having this belief that noone really cares how I feel, what I want, or that lending me their ear or shoulder Is a burden to them when I need someone.
It's a very lonely world. And I feel like I have no answers or know what the next step is.
Sorry, I just had to get this off my chest. This is the only site I feel free to do so.