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  • Had to move into an RV because I couldn’t find an affordable apartment. My new apartment was infested with springtails and I got really sick and developed a stress rash all over my body, so I bought an RV and found a nice RV resort to live in. I’m really depressed right now and feeling really emotionally drained. I wish I were allowed to just have a normal life. My bf and I were supposed to do everything together but now I have to do it all alone because he left me for another woman… I hate my life…
    Had to move into an RV because I couldn’t find an affordable apartment. My new apartment was infested with springtails and I got really sick and developed a stress rash all over my body, so I bought an RV and found a nice RV resort to live in. I’m really depressed right now and feeling really emotionally drained. I wish I were allowed to just have a normal life. My bf and I were supposed to do everything together but now I have to do it all alone because he left me for another woman… I hate my life…
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  • People are crap. I had the weirdest and most hurtful conversation with my brother in laws dad,he pretty much thinks it's funny to insult me because of how I dress and that I talk about music alot,he insulted me,disrespected and threatened me,pretty much I'm his punching bag.....we'll see how much longer this goes in for. Feeling pretty upset right now....
    People are crap. I had the weirdest and most hurtful conversation with my brother in laws dad,he pretty much thinks it's funny to insult me because of how I dress and that I talk about music alot,he insulted me,disrespected and threatened me,pretty much I'm his punching bag.....we'll see how much longer this goes in for. Feeling pretty upset right now....
    On Fire
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  • Feeling it.
    Feeling it.
    Goth Vibes
    On Fire
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  • Hot Hindu chick at the smoke shop just hooked me up with some primo gummies. I get the feeling her arranged marriage might not be all lotus and curry so I've got that going for me.
    Hot Hindu chick at the smoke shop just hooked me up with some primo gummies. I get the feeling her arranged marriage might not be all lotus and curry so I've got that going for me.
    Rotten Laughs
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  • Goth is becoming more popular than it has ever been. Take for example The Cure cover "The Perfect Girl" that has by total over billion streams. Of course a lot of it has to do with universal feeling of melancholy, spread through TikTok.

    Just noticed that even TWIX uses Belarusian postpunk song that quotes Russian poet's words about institutionalized life, where death feels more cozy than life - but there's a desperate longing to face life directly, to cry, and to keep living rather than disappear.

    Btw, this Twix commercial got banned in Britain.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7lBA5aX-iI

    While TikTok follows trends - and I'm quite surprised to see something as underground as Radio Werewolf being played by teenagers & young adults - there's also people like a clothing market in St. Petersburg (Russia), named Kissa Market (Kissa means Cat in Finnish) that isn't just a company but a whole philosophy and a collective answer to life's struggles. These photos market their own brand of clothing, and their shop in the "ruins of empires".
    Goth is becoming more popular than it has ever been. Take for example The Cure cover "The Perfect Girl" that has by total over billion streams. Of course a lot of it has to do with universal feeling of melancholy, spread through TikTok. Just noticed that even TWIX uses Belarusian postpunk song that quotes Russian poet's words about institutionalized life, where death feels more cozy than life - but there's a desperate longing to face life directly, to cry, and to keep living rather than disappear. Btw, this Twix commercial got banned in Britain. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7lBA5aX-iI While TikTok follows trends - and I'm quite surprised to see something as underground as Radio Werewolf being played by teenagers & young adults - there's also people like a clothing market in St. Petersburg (Russia), named Kissa Market (Kissa means Cat in Finnish) that isn't just a company but a whole philosophy and a collective answer to life's struggles. These photos market their own brand of clothing, and their shop in the "ruins of empires".
    Dark Love
    Goth Vibes
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  • You know that feeling of being scared to be happy even for a brief moment? Because that sensation when your happy little world crashes down and wrenches your entire gut and closes your thoat is the worst. And the bad always seems to come smashing down when you've just started floating again. So you avoid the crash by any cost. just not allowing youself to float up with happiness again. If everything remains in shambles maybe the bad won't come because ther is nothing left to shatter...
    But sometimes you are dumb and faint glitter of hope makes you think maybe I'll try floating again maybe this time it won't crash. But it will.
    Just one call and a nice and relaxed weekend that finally cheered me up a bit, became the start of probably the most difficult time I'll have to face...
    I'm trueley terrified of whats ahead...
    You know that feeling of being scared to be happy even for a brief moment? Because that sensation when your happy little world crashes down and wrenches your entire gut and closes your thoat is the worst. And the bad always seems to come smashing down when you've just started floating again. So you avoid the crash by any cost. just not allowing youself to float up with happiness again. If everything remains in shambles maybe the bad won't come because ther is nothing left to shatter... But sometimes you are dumb and faint glitter of hope makes you think maybe I'll try floating again maybe this time it won't crash. But it will. Just one call and a nice and relaxed weekend that finally cheered me up a bit, became the start of probably the most difficult time I'll have to face... I'm trueley terrified of whats ahead...
    Dark Love
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  • Perhaps there are others here who also work in the IT sector and/or have strong connections to the topic:

    Currently, I am finding it increasingly difficult to continue working in my field, but in general and not explicitly related to my workplace.
    Professionally, I deal with the topic of AI on a daily basis, but also to such an extent that issues such as professional recognition and even promotions depend on excessive use.
    AI undoubtedly has its (sometimes really good) uses. Nevertheless, the ethics of its application on the current global scale seem extremely difficult to me.
    So difficult that I don't know if I want to remain in this profession with a clear conscience, because I am no longer an IT consultant or developer, but rather feel like an AI coordinator whose job it is to mediate cleanly between humans and machines.
    I am currently observing how jobs are increasingly being outsourced to AI. Either actively, by no longer advertising the positions, or passively, by dismissing everything that can be replaced via personnel interviews with seemingly flimsy justifications (you can always find a way to get rid of someone Unwanted).
    And global experience shows how wonderful this outsourcing of work is: work becomes less valuable, company owners pocket the dividends, and the social divide grows ever wider.

    I chose this profession to solve problems and help people, to specialize in consulting and service, to actively help people, to identify challenges that I am familiar with, and to support them. Even when the day was long and difficult, I could go home with a clear conscience. Because when the problem was solved, my customers were grateful and happy—and so was I, because I was able to help someone.
    Today, I have become part of the problem. I no longer help to support people, but to replace them—and I am just waiting to be replaced myself.
    I used to have the desire to continue my education in my field, to live my life and to learn. Now I no longer know why I should.

    The future and the existence I had once envisioned, the “healthy world,” are no longer there.
    And in the evenings, when darkness descends, I can hardly sleep. With my eyes closed, I lie awake, feeling paralyzed, as if my thoughts are constantly running into a wall. I don't dare talk about it with those around me because I only see myself as a burden on the world. I think no one needs my problems—everyone is struggling with their own, and I am just another burden, another eyesore in an already fragile world.
    How can I still represent the hope and confidence of a world that is dying, when I am a correspondent of its murder?
    Perhaps there are others here who also work in the IT sector and/or have strong connections to the topic: Currently, I am finding it increasingly difficult to continue working in my field, but in general and not explicitly related to my workplace. Professionally, I deal with the topic of AI on a daily basis, but also to such an extent that issues such as professional recognition and even promotions depend on excessive use. AI undoubtedly has its (sometimes really good) uses. Nevertheless, the ethics of its application on the current global scale seem extremely difficult to me. So difficult that I don't know if I want to remain in this profession with a clear conscience, because I am no longer an IT consultant or developer, but rather feel like an AI coordinator whose job it is to mediate cleanly between humans and machines. I am currently observing how jobs are increasingly being outsourced to AI. Either actively, by no longer advertising the positions, or passively, by dismissing everything that can be replaced via personnel interviews with seemingly flimsy justifications (you can always find a way to get rid of someone Unwanted). And global experience shows how wonderful this outsourcing of work is: work becomes less valuable, company owners pocket the dividends, and the social divide grows ever wider. I chose this profession to solve problems and help people, to specialize in consulting and service, to actively help people, to identify challenges that I am familiar with, and to support them. Even when the day was long and difficult, I could go home with a clear conscience. Because when the problem was solved, my customers were grateful and happy—and so was I, because I was able to help someone. Today, I have become part of the problem. I no longer help to support people, but to replace them—and I am just waiting to be replaced myself. I used to have the desire to continue my education in my field, to live my life and to learn. Now I no longer know why I should. The future and the existence I had once envisioned, the “healthy world,” are no longer there. And in the evenings, when darkness descends, I can hardly sleep. With my eyes closed, I lie awake, feeling paralyzed, as if my thoughts are constantly running into a wall. I don't dare talk about it with those around me because I only see myself as a burden on the world. I think no one needs my problems—everyone is struggling with their own, and I am just another burden, another eyesore in an already fragile world. How can I still represent the hope and confidence of a world that is dying, when I am a correspondent of its murder?
    Goth Vibes
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  • Another day wasted by sleeping too long and then forcing myself to do chores like groceries...
    I sat down to look at job offerings to at least do something useful instead of staring at my phone. Just to find that the only job offer that I had my hopes on is expired. They probably filled the position and didn't even read my application anymore. All other things I find are not in my expertise and also not in my local vicinity....
    This disappointment was the last thing I needed right now. I was already in the ditch feeling burned out, abandoned and left alone with my problems. People are just too busy to care. Now I can put hopelessness right next to it on my depression Bingo card...
    What an awesome start this year. And with the current political situation it will only get worse. Shit time to be alive our future is as rosy as a dumpster. I'm loosing any desire to see it.
    Another day wasted by sleeping too long and then forcing myself to do chores like groceries... I sat down to look at job offerings to at least do something useful instead of staring at my phone. Just to find that the only job offer that I had my hopes on is expired. They probably filled the position and didn't even read my application anymore. All other things I find are not in my expertise and also not in my local vicinity.... This disappointment was the last thing I needed right now. I was already in the ditch feeling burned out, abandoned and left alone with my problems. People are just too busy to care. Now I can put hopelessness right next to it on my depression Bingo card... What an awesome start this year. And with the current political situation it will only get worse. Shit time to be alive our future is as rosy as a dumpster. I'm loosing any desire to see it.
    Goth Vibes
    Spooky Feels
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  • Urghh this suuucccks!!
    All day I was actually looking forward to m daily workout session because I found a cool Pilates flow im really curious to try. Guess what halfway through the workday my body said fucketh they and gave me the worst stomach cramps for no reason. 😭 Guess I'll take a long walk instead....
    Although feeling sick is a good reason to rest my orthorexia demon HATES skipping why is my brain broken like this?!
    Urghh this suuucccks!! All day I was actually looking forward to m daily workout session because I found a cool Pilates flow im really curious to try. Guess what halfway through the workday my body said fucketh they and gave me the worst stomach cramps for no reason. 😭 Guess I'll take a long walk instead.... Although feeling sick is a good reason to rest my orthorexia demon HATES skipping why is my brain broken like this?!
    I'm Dead
    On Fire
    Spooky Feels
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  • Finally feeling better after being really sick since new year's eve!
    Finally feeling better after being really sick since new year's eve!
    Dark Love
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