Embrace the Storm
I wrote a poem, which will become a future song, about my 15year partner PJ

Embrace the Storm
by XZanthia
He doesn’t flinch when the lightning hits.
He never asked me to dim.
He just stood still
while the sky cracked open
and smiled
like it was beautiful.
He saw the fire in my chest
and didn’t reach for water.
He knew
I wasn’t dangerous
I was divine.
He don’t compete, he completes
He don’t crumble when the current heats
While boys bail out, he’s building rafts
While others fear, he laughs at collapse
I shook the room, he didn’t blink
I roared in rage, he made me think
He knows how to hold
without holding me back
and that’s how you carry
a queen’s heart intact
To walk beside a powerful woman
you don’t need chains
you need courage
Not armor, but honor
Not silence,
but space
He never caged the lioness
He never named me “too much”
He simply looked
and let me be
until I let him
see everything
Powerful presence, patient, precise
Protecting peace without a price
Fire-fed, focused, feeling full
He’s not afraid, I’m never dull
He’s got thunder in his spine
Steel in his silence
Grace in his gaze
and no trace of violence
HE NEVER RAN FROM MY RAGE!
HE NEVER NEEDED ME SMALL!
HE HELD MY CHAOS IN HIS HANDS
AND NEVER DROPPED ME
AT ALL!
Other men feared me
He faced me
Other men chased me
He stayed
When I shattered, he sharpened me
When I wept, he witnessed me
He didn’t want to fix the fire
He wanted to feel it with me
And maybe you think
this song’s about you…
Maybe you wish it could be
But only a rare one
gets written into fire like this.
Real ones rise when her voice shakes the walls
Real ones don’t shrink when the goddess calls
If she’s the storm, he’s the ground beneath
Still. Sure. Strong in belief.
This ain’t fiction, it’s a fact
You want a queen? Learn how to act
Not to conquer, not to own
But to honor her
like a throne
HE NEVER ASKED ME TO SHUT UP!
NEVER ASKED ME TO SHRINK!
HE TOOK MY FIRE
AND FED IT!!
I am the flame
And he holds me
I am the howl
And he hears me
I am the storm
But he never tried to stop the rain
He just stood
With open hands
And loves me
without fear.

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Have you ever had that nagging sensation that you're out of place among the wrong people? Lately, I've struggled to find any opportunities at the place where I live. It feels like months have gone by with only empty promises from work, leaving me burnt out and unable to enjoy even the simplest pleasures.

I can't shake this profound loneliness I've experienced for weeks, and it's perplexing since I’m in a relationship. It's odd when you are being told that they are here for you and to try to respond to this as often as possible on the same level, even when your social battery is depleted, yet still feel so utterly isolated. The depths of my depression have made it hard to get out of bed for days, with tears flowing freely.

Am I misguided in my expectations of what a relationship should be? When I realize that a house is on fire, for example, and I hear some calls for help, I try to rescue this person from it if possible and don’t avoid it because it might be too “hot.” I believe in stepping into the flames to support those I love, to hold their hand as we navigate the chaos together. Yet, here I am, feeling like I’m trapped in my own burning house while my partner stands outside, unsure whether to come in or watch from a distance.

I’m left feeling so conflicted… I love my partner deeply, yet I also feel profoundly abandoned and overlooked. I want to believe that love can withstand these moments of despair, that we can face life’s struggles as a team. But the distance created by unspoken words and unmet expectations feels like an insurmountable wall between us.

I often wonder if I’m asking for too much—if my desire for connection is unreasonable in a world that often seems too chaotic to handle. Shouldn't a partner be a safe haven, a source of comfort during the storm? Or am I just searching for validation in all the wrong places?

The fear of losing that connection, of being vulnerable and showing my true self, holds me back. There are days I crave honesty, but what if that honesty exposes too much? What if it reveals the depths of my struggles, and in response, all I receive is pity instead of understanding?

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