I think I'm starting to have a creative burnout due to regular burnout...

Somehow my latest "Just-for-fun" cosplay project that I just did for the sake of fun not for an upcoming convention or contest has become my "Frustration-Project". And that sucks!
The wig I'm styling for it is not making any progress and I have been working on and off on it for 2 Months...I never worked on such a complex wig re-styling with constructing a detachable Ponytail before, so I expected it to take longer... But whats frustratiing is that I dont't get to, or can't motivate myself to work on it for more than one hour per week on average. Which is really frustrating!
I really want to finis it to start on other things...I know if I just put it aside for other things I will never pick it up again to finish it.
I don't want it to end up on the unfinished project graveyard... =(

Helped my mom decorating the Advents Wreath

Today really was a Terrible day. Not only did I work longer than it is legal (again). I also wasn't very focussed and did a lot of mistakes in my lab work...I don't think a blanket and c-drama will fix this day..-

I really need to dump & vent some emotions rn...humor me...
The fact that I am still very moody and don't really feel like talking to people one on one kinda contriubted to this day being shitty as lab work forces me to interact with my colleauges more than documentation. and I really don't feel like talking lately.
It's probably hard to get....While I do have a lot of things troubling me and I do need to get them off my chest, I dont have the energy nor the desire to open a 1 on 1 converstaion about it, and even less desire to talk about the world and smalltalk.
It's not like there are no people I could go to if I needed talking. There are. And I know I can go to them anytime. I just don't want to. Bc I don't want to have any interactive converstaions at the moment, if not necessary. Then I'd rahter passively dump it somewhere like here and get if off my chest. It is often not about wanting advice or needing re-assurance. It is mostly just wanting it out...
Just posting it in an anyways dead place gives me the freedom to decide on my own if and when I get advice or others opinion on it. If I need to I'll read comments, If I dont wan't to I just don't.
Is that weird??
I think I am like this because I have always been the Listeing and giving advice friend and not the sharing and wanting advice one.
I'm just used to being that way and found my ways to vent emotions...

Oh dear, the next few days will probably require a lot of masking...
There are so many project presentations coming up that I have to lead, and tomorrow we have a big company event where it was mentioned that I'll be photographed more often, as a showpiece so to speak.
On the one hand, I see the whole thing as an opportunity to consolidate certain positions for myself, but on the other hand, I'm being pushed hard into the center of attention, which I don't really like.

Well, now it's time to make myself 'pretty' so that I don't look quite so shitty tomorrow.
Hopefully I can sleep despite the intense anxiety...

I've been gone for some time. I have a VampireRave account that i was experimenting with cause I wanted a taste of the old VampireFreaks days (I just like the complete freedom on how you could design your profile on it). Its still up but my premium membership expired so I gotta renew it eventually but money is tight right now.

I need to vent; I finally brought a device for making industrial music! I spent 1hr last night plugging it in, searching for the right software to download.....no joy. The only explanation I can think is that my laptop is incompatible which is stupid because it's only a few months old. I give up! Sticking with guitar distortion pedal....that's as close to industrial music I can get.

#Retro #tvshow #TV #SciFiAdventure #timetrax
Early 1990s...when life was simpler...
https://youtu.be/Kj0CJ9m1ZHk

Wutt? My weather app informed me, it is supposed to snow tomorrow?!? (Probably just mushy wet snow rain) damm and I can't do homeoffice tomorrow of all days...
Well here it is the time where getting to work becomes a dangerous adventure again
(Not that i don't love a white winter wonderland. I just hate the icy slippery mush we get around here)

CristallDarcy InfernalHate

Following up on the yesterday's topic about the special circle of Hell for the inventor of 9-5 jobs. :D Enjoy! :D :D :D

Me and CristallDarcy collectively agree that whoever "invented" 9-5 jobs should be put in a special circle of Hell.