#MMA https://youtu.be/eOkIeKLK71o

Lots of crazy stuff this week,Been spending the night at my folks place because SADLY I can't even get sleep thanks to my neighbor. Calling the Cops tommarrow and hopefully throwing the guy out for good,been putting up with this crap far too long ! On the upside got to head over to the art Institute with my mom and niece,had not been back in a bit so it was a wonderful experience as always,turned a few heads with my battle jacket and leather spiked boots per usual,saw a few like minded people there too so it food to see a variety of folks attending. Finished the evening with a great dinner,few drinks and one of the Lord Of The Rings films.

Hahaha ja kommer sitta ensam på min kammare tills tidens ände. ROFL ROFL MAOOOOOO

Halloween was a bit different when I was a kid back in the 70's. Our store-bought costumes were flammable death traps, the candy was laced with cocaine, LSD, and sharp metal objects. This was also before global warming, and we had to traverse glaciers and fight off mammoths from one neighborhood to the next. It was worth the peril, though. The untainted old-school sweets were the shit!

I am the lie That glares in your eyes You are my liar Who takes my commands I am the fear That drives you insane You are the jerk Who toes the line I am the hate That strokes your hate You are my hater Who wages my war I am the violence That lets you assault You are my brave My soldier and slave

Zatanna "In Studio" I decided to save this DC Comics Crossplay greatness for a rainy day like it was earlier today. So back in August 17th, 2019, I was doing some cleaning out of my apartment space, and while I was rummaging through some of my Zatanna costume pose and templates in my office files I thought it was high time I did an in-studio Zatanna crossplay based on some of those drawings and bring some of them to a life imitating art. Each time I took a picture it was like I was on point each time showing that my trusty Hewlett Packard Photosmart E327 has got what it takes where and when it counts the most. In addition to the the corset upgrade was a major improvement with the wig and tights that make Zatanna really stand out and rock. #zatanna #zatannazatara #zatannacosplay #zatannacrossplay #DC #dccomics #dcuniverse #dccomicscosplay #dccomicscrossplay #instudio #instudiophotography #tophat #fishnets #cosplay #crossplay

lets have christmas right now imma Ready for it Withe Gingerbread Cookies & GluWEIN RIGHT NOW!!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdeUU_aag7E

You cant funk with me no longer. Imma a G ! ! ! !

Ahhh. 😩 My depression & anxiety is back to a 10. Three days ago we where told we have to move because our landlord is selling our home. Again. We were not finically prepared and have only 1 option. Noah n I r moving into a trailer at my fathers, I can’t bring my animals because they will b confined n neglected. My dog I’ve had 8years barks if left alone, n we both work full time. Etc. PJ is looking for a place to live, my nephew has to move back to Arizona, he’s been with me since my brother passed away n our friend/roommate was crying in our driveway when we pulled in last night from taking a load of my stuff to storage. This has made me physically ill. I’m soooooooo unhappy with moving into this situation however no one has the $ to pay first,last night security deposit @ a new place this fast other then our roommate n I, n I go out of the country for a month sept 3. I’m very worried about the stress this is gonna put in my relationship with pj & I’m still trying to finish my paintings for my solo show in a week in Orlando. I’m gonna make the best out of it, but it’s very hard to see anything positive about it. Living on my father’s property is immensely repressive and his personally is unusually difficult. he kicked us out 3 months ago because of small annoyances. He gave us 2 days to move. I swore I would never return & I stopped shooting daily life videos then because I’ve been so depressed. I just got on medication for my depression a week ago. Ahhh, the eggshells to walk on with my father or it will happen again. I have had no stability since 2018. Moving constantly, Landloards selling my home repeatedly without enough time to properly prepare for next chapter. I’m soooo glad I was never able to have kids, just seeing the stress this has put on my relationships & animals is horrible. I can’t imagine dragging a child through the shit that has been my life. I don’t share this to often, it’s to private and ugly, but this has been the second worse chapter of my life. With all the death, displacement & deletion of the platforms I have worked so hard on, it’s been very hard to want to move forward. My x that left me in 2018, when this all started. Loosing my st pete home I was in 8 years n my resort, often joked that “my life was in shambles”. Loosing him was devastating during that change. I’m grateful for PJ & Noah for sticking around. PJ 15 years, Noah 3 years. I’ve moved 7 times since I’ve been with Noah the last 3 years. This will be the 8th. PJ was crying in his sleep last night. His girlfriend of 4 years just ended it with him a month ago & he’s been taking it very hard. (Pj, Noah & I are polyamorous) I’m lucky in that field. There is sooooooo much more but that’s is only the stuff that I can say publicly. I have cryed soooo much in the last couple days my mussels hurt & im dehydrated. I wish I had 3 months to prepare. It’s 3-4am n I can’t sleep and I have work at 5am. I just want my life to stop sucking. I’m sick of pretending everything is ok. I just want to be ok. Even if only for 6 months without loosing someone or something huge. At least I no longer have to sleep in the bed, in the bedroom of my x Drew who died a year ago while he had been living with us off n on for 10 years. I still dream of him, not living in our space will help me move on from that trama. There is a silver ligning. 😩 Instagram.com/XZanthia_OctoShroom

What a friggin annoying and exhausting day... Not to brag but I think our department wouldn't be so well functioning if I weren't there playing the part of the lab momma. I dread going on vacation. Because I will come back to a mess. Not only in my lab but also in my projects.