Either I'm too stupid for social interactions or I'm just getting along with private social understandings a lot less lately than I already do.

I really don't have many friends, which is a shame because I normally like company, but my last experiences with company or trying to socialize or make friends were more or less a disaster.
I'm beginning to suspect that this is more of a primal human feeling of envy, not having many friends (greed for something more) when I look at the whole thing reflectively.

It's just ridiculous how clear and open communication is thrown out the window and is seen as a strange, perverse kind of challenge to some people.

#videogames #Star_Wars #TIE #TIE_fighter #Legends #Expanded_Universe #Empire #Space #weapons #Andor #TIE_Avenger
https://www.superherohype.com/tv/598465-andor-tie-avenger-brings-a-piece-of-a-classic-star-wars-game-into-official-canon

Living right next to a church has advantages and disadvantages.
On the one hand, you have a fantastic view of old European architecture from the kitchen, and I especially love looking at the stained glass windows reflecting in the sun in the morning.

But sleeping in on Sundays and public holidays (especially on the very Christian holidays) is a complete no-go. Especially when the damned bell is on the bedroom side and rings through the roof just in time for mass in the morning...

#social_media #fire #trend #stupidity

I have been thinking of getting a facial piercing for a while now.. Do you think a labret would suit me ? Put a fake one on my lip a few weeks ago and took a picture. But I can't decide of I like or hate it. I kinda hate seeing myself in most of the selfies I take, except for cosplay pics in which im literally not myself. I have been struggling with body dismorphia and self-esteem a lot lately...so I need a confidence boost...

It was so clear once again; you're looking forward to a long weekend with the family, finally have the capacity to actively meet up with your social environment again after weeks (aka best conditions), only for something to come up again...

Now I have an extra long weekend just for myself again, although I was looking forward to going out with my family...

Maybe I'll just go out at the weekend anyway, even if it's just with myself

#CIA #KGB #Cold_War #classified #UFO #fight #conflict #technology #engineering #bio_engineering #UAP

https://economictimes.indiatimes.com/news/international/global-trends/cold-war-23-soviet-troops-turned-to-stone-by-alien-light-cia-memo-unearths-cold-war-mystery/articleshow/120287586.cms?from=mdr

#AI #artificial_intelligence #doll #trend #ChatGPT #Copilot
Oh shit...a new trend will swipe the planet...
https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c5yg690e9eno

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.