YouTube.com/XZanthiaMUSIC 👽💿🎤🎶🎵 This is music that refuses to sit still. It isn’t here to soothe you or fade into the background— it exists to keep you alert, slightly off-balance, never certain what’s about to unfold next. Every moment is a corner you haven’t turned yet. Just when you think you understand it, it shifts, lunges, softens, surprises. It’s an acquired taste, absolutely— not something inherited, familiar, or politely nostalgic. This is not comfort food. This is appetite disruption. I want the sound to confuse you, to intrigue you, to make you uneasy in a way that keeps pulling you closer. To catch you enjoying tension, finding pleasure in resistance, realizing that discomfort can feel intimate when it refuses to let go. You may not always know what you’re hearing, but you’ll never be bored— because at any moment it’s ready to leap out, wrap around you, and pull you into that strange place where struggle feels like an embrace. Project 19.5 is an ethereal, esoteric music project that began in 1998, long before genres like “witch house,” “dark ambient,” or “experimental pop” had names attached to them. What started as intimate sonic experimentation grew over decades into a body of work shaped by collaborations with multiple producers across different eras, each phase capturing a different emotional frequency and psychological landscape. Rather than traditional songwriting, Project 19.5 focuses on much, but not all non-lyrical vocals, breath, tone, texture, and instinct. My voice is treated as an instrument—hovering between noise, chant, dream, and ritual—allowing listeners to project their own meaning without being guided by explicit words. This approach creates an immersive emotional experience that exists somewhere between beauty and unease. In 2025, the project entered a new phase: revisiting, remixing, and remastering archival material to finally release it in its most refined and intentional form. These recordings preserve the raw spirit of their original creation while enhancing the depth, clarity, and atmosphere—bridging past and present into a singular evolving entity. Project 19.5 represents the ethereal side of XZanthia—still haunting, still unsettling, but softer and more internal than her darker project, Jupiter’s Thunder. The Project 19.5 album Uzumaki exists within this realm as a gentler spiral, incorporating lyrics while maintaining a dreamlike, hypnotic quality. This is music designed to be felt rather than understood—a liminal soundscape for introspection, transformation, and emotional resonance beyond language.

I like simple pleasures, like cranberry sauce in my ass and a turkey leg in my mouth. That's just me.

Peaceful protest. No one or property was harmed. Voices were heard, the message is clear. https://newschannel9.com/news/local/gallery-no-kings-protesters-share-displeasure-with-trump-admin-in-chattanooga-dalton

Wishes for more brains in 2025. Be healthy and be alerted. A pleasure knowing all of you in here... See you in another life.

#redheads #pain #study #sex #orgasm #pleasure https://nypost.com/2024/12/29/health/scientists-say-redheads-feel-pleasure-and-pain-differently/

Have you ever had that nagging sensation that you're out of place among the wrong people? Lately, I've struggled to find any opportunities at the place where I live. It feels like months have gone by with only empty promises from work, leaving me burnt out and unable to enjoy even the simplest pleasures. I can't shake this profound loneliness I've experienced for weeks, and it's perplexing since I’m in a relationship. It's odd when you are being told that they are here for you and to try to respond to this as often as possible on the same level, even when your social battery is depleted, yet still feel so utterly isolated. The depths of my depression have made it hard to get out of bed for days, with tears flowing freely. Am I misguided in my expectations of what a relationship should be? When I realize that a house is on fire, for example, and I hear some calls for help, I try to rescue this person from it if possible and don’t avoid it because it might be too “hot.” I believe in stepping into the flames to support those I love, to hold their hand as we navigate the chaos together. Yet, here I am, feeling like I’m trapped in my own burning house while my partner stands outside, unsure whether to come in or watch from a distance. I’m left feeling so conflicted… I love my partner deeply, yet I also feel profoundly abandoned and overlooked. I want to believe that love can withstand these moments of despair, that we can face life’s struggles as a team. But the distance created by unspoken words and unmet expectations feels like an insurmountable wall between us. I often wonder if I’m asking for too much—if my desire for connection is unreasonable in a world that often seems too chaotic to handle. Shouldn't a partner be a safe haven, a source of comfort during the storm? Or am I just searching for validation in all the wrong places? The fear of losing that connection, of being vulnerable and showing my true self, holds me back. There are days I crave honesty, but what if that honesty exposes too much? What if it reveals the depths of my struggles, and in response, all I receive is pity instead of understanding?

My threads are ribbed for your pleasure.

#vampirefreaks It is always a pleasure to see some old VF users in here. Good surprise.

Keeping the old school flame alive. Coming straight outta Pittsburgh for your spooky season pleasure. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2DcUzQ--RI

Tiny Tim was honestly such a beautiful soul no matter which age he was he shined like the brightest of stars. I acquired quite a few photos of him over the last week and a half through various websites. I will probably post more periodically but everyone who follows me knows that I try not to post too much of the same thing at one time. That includes celebrity crushes, which I never knew that tiny Tim would become one of my crushes but he definitely is starting to become a sparkle in my life and my husband never told me that he actually had the pleasure of meeting him once back in the '90s He said that they did not meet for very long but what he could tell is that tiny Tim was super awesome and he definitely knew what he was doing in the music industry even with all the ridicule. We love you sweetie. #rememberingtinytim #weloveyoubuddy. #celebcrush #cutie #tinytimisbeautifulinsideandout #sexybeast #gonetosoon #wegottosharetheearthforashorttime