Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed. Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen... I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here. I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.

Painted some baby pumpkins with my daughters.

Saw this on Facebook shared by Alexis Palmer one day ago: "Somewhere, there’s a woman: 30 years old, no children. People ask her, “Still no kids?” She forces a smile. “Not yet.” Later, she cries… because she’s had miscarriages, because IVF didn’t work, because she’s tried for years, because her heart aches every time she’s asked that question. Somewhere else, there’s a woman: 34, five children. People say, “Five? I hope you’re done!” They laugh like it’s funny. She laughs too, politely. Later, she cries… because she wanted a big family, because her Granny had 12, because she’s tired of the judgment, because people assume she’s irresponsible, because no one sees how much love and care she pours into her kids. And then there’s another woman: 40, one child. People ask, “Only one? Didn’t you want more?” She smiles, “I’m happy with my one.” Later, she cries… because her one was a miracle, because she wanted more, because her body or life circumstances won’t allow it, because people don’t know the battles she’s already fought. 💔 These women are everywhere. They are our sisters, our neighbors, our coworkers, our friends. Their wombs are not community property. Their choices are not public business. Their pain is not ours to poke at with casual comments and “funny” jokes. So here’s the reminder: 👉 Whether it’s no kids, five kids, or one kid—it’s not your place to question. 👉 Respect their journey. Respect their story. Respect their silence. Because you never know what tears are hidden behind that smile." [Nadirah Angail]

A few words…. Dear Democrats: I know you are confused right now. I know you are struggling to comprehend what is happening. I am happy to explain it to you. You see, for decades you have persecuted us for holding conventionally American conservative beliefs. You insulted us. You called us "Nazis." You forcibly silenced us in conventional media and social media. You made us scared to speak our beliefs lest we lose our jobs or our friends and families. You de-banked us. You jailed conservative meme makers for free speech. You tried to steal our children in the public schools. You made us sit at our jobs and silently listen to some HR Karen telling us we were all inherently racist, sexist and evil. You pursued our political leaders with illegitimate lawfare right out of some mid-20th Century fascist state. You badgered us at the Thanksgiving table. You made us feel unwelcome in our own country and in our own homes. We tried turning the other cheek. We tried reasoning with you. We tried standing on principle. We told you that if we finally decided to do to you what you did to us, that you would not like it. Then your rhetoric got Charlie killed. Guess what? We have had enough, and we finally decided to do to you what you did to us. You need to be taught a painful lesson so the USA can be restored to a nation of freedom, justice and liberty. Do you understand now? It's for your own good. Love, Conservative America

Unfortunatelly my Toby has a agressive tumor on his leg... monday will to more exames to see if the tumor has already spread through his body... no easy decions... to operate his leg he has to do chemotherapy and hope that the cancer reduces... but only if the results of analisys show tha the cancer will be affected by chemo.. if not... we have 2 choices... amputate the leg... or leavit... and start threating him with medicine to ease the pain that he migth have... and give him tehe best life quality possible.. my heart his twice broken... broken because i will miss him ... and broken because he came to us some months affer my dad passed away with cancer... and he became my mothers companion...and it will devastating for her... not the passing... but the absence of his presence... because for 8 years he followed her everywhere.. and everywhere she looks... she will be reminded off him.. i will too.. sorry for venting... but it's been couple rough days.... 😢

The soundtrack to every British arcade in the 80s and 90s. Brings back memories of cold-wet Welsh hoildays, and a lingering desire to travel to spain like all my friends. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSIMVnPA994&list=RDa7CAZee9Hs0&index=2

#haunted #Haunting #paintings #paint #Crying_Boy #UK #metaphysical #paranormal #paranormalmystery https://drdavidclarke.co.uk/urban-legendary/the-curse-of-the-crying-boy/

https://pjsandpaint.com/printables/free-printable-halloween-games-and-activities/

Put me on suicide watch guys; I'm dual installing and booting Windows 10, and Linux Arch. I think having my tits kicked off would be less a painful experience! I'm not installing windows 11, because fuck that noise.

Van Gogh imersive experience... 30 min of many of Van Gogh paintings projected inside an old water house .. very nice :)