A friends teen fam member tried to commit s*icide recently and the first thing said was she only cut her wr*sts thats not a real attempt. I had to think about the thoughtsin my head in that moment. When I was that friends teen fam members age I was a cutter, still got the scars and to hear it be simply dismissed as it was "just her wrists" baffled me. She's in hospital for the next while but.. I hope they take it seriously because to hurt that deep... if your hurting please dont let it swllow you whole.. reach out to someone and if you know someone hurting like that don't judge or dismiss. You never know whats going on in someones heart and soul and what pain they might be enduring.

https://youtu.be/dyihQtBes1I?si=XwXfw30SNj-UCBQB

Obsolescence might shoot nails into his dick, paint it green and pull his cactus while shoving a beer bottle up his ass but you know what they say......if it makes you happy

Twitter for the Xtra whoreknee
Heyfreaks for the closeted worenii
Tumblr for the og hornii


I'm not expaing dis list

#steampunk #festival #new_zealand #Oamaru
https://www.travelandtourworld.com/news/article/new-zealand-us-malaysia-spain-armenia-st-kitts-nevis-south-africa-festivals-oamaru-steampunk-10000-lifeline-tourism-boom/

I tried I really tried...but it happens again... I'm trying to not be invisible. And at result I've become painfully visible just utterly disregarded...

There is a heavy Rain in my head but no one wants to look out the windows because facing the clouds is too depressing for them...They rather look at their reflection I the windows.



Why am I so stupid, forgiving and hopeful and keep trying? I save myself so much disappointment if I just close up and suffer in silence.

Took a couple hours off work so I can at least have like 18 hours of weekend instead of 12 :')

Kinda trying to relax and distract my currently really pessimistic head by tinkering a bit on some cosplays of mine.
However I'm kinda too stupid with my brush as I'm sure half the paint ends up on my body when I look at my arms atm.

If I keep this up, I'm going to accidentally cosplay that horrific purple mascot from MC-D :D

#Spain #energy #infrastructure #power #society #socialization #touch #humans #people #blackout

And the true socialization procedure started...

https://www.fastcompany.com/91326177/this-is-how-it-feels-at-the-beginning-of-the-end-of-the-world

Well... that's one for the life stories.... complete energy black out in Portugal and Spain (and in some places of france and Italy) yesterday..... for at least 12h.....

I knew it.




I'm just not worth to be described. Because the only way im seen is when I function. When im useful.
How will anynoe describe me as anything elst than "the one that waters their plants on vacation" ot "that drives them around". Im not "the one with the soft bouncy curls" or "the one that always has paint on her Fingers" bc these little details that make me a person are never seen. They are not useful...

In slowly but surely falling into an even darker place...

Once again Lucy Krugers gentle and melancholic voice is the only thing that keeps me grounded and comforts me. It's he only voice I want to hear rn and my paintbrushes are the only thing I want to hold on to. But I am forced to function. Listen to everyone yap and pick up the pieces of myself that break off along the road.
I am so tired
https://youtu.be/EvaWwpTvm0o?si=dT_fCbd3ZbsB5_Fg