why do i get sleepy after i jerk off?

Lately, When I express my genuine thoughts and concerns, it feels like a form of punishment.

This happens both at work, in meetings where input is supposedly valued, and in my personal life. My attempts to voice a concern or a different perspective are often dismissed as pessimism, exaggeration, or even egomania. It seems I am being penalized simply for having an opinion and for caring enough to be concerned.

Increasingly, I feel that I am being passively silenced—not with a direct command, but with subtle cues and reactions that make thinking feel like a forbidden act. I am being reduced to a sounding board, a wall for others to shout at, with no expectation of a reciprocal conversation. My role is not to contribute, but to absorb.

And then, people wonder. They wonder why I am burning out, why my energy and creativity have evaporated, why my motivation has dwindled to nothing. They don't see the cumulative weight of being silenced.
I notice that the situation is gradually affecting my body. I currently only sleep with a tight chest and painful breathing, and I wake up in the middle of the night with my heart racing.

In shadows deep, where darkness dwells,
Cruelty smiles, negativity tells.
Demons trail, a haunting plight,
Trying to halt my inner light.

Everywhere, their presence sneers,
In screens and faces, fueling fears.
Monsters lurk, in corners creep,
Laughing softly, beneath my sleep.

Yet, I fight, with courage bright,
Seeking solace, in endless night.
I call to God, with fervent plea,
Chase them back to hell, and set me free.

A God-fearing soul, I yearn to find,
Peace in heart, and peace in mind.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EMDp_L0EYss

5+ HOURS of Vatican Secret Mysteries To Fall Asleep To

That feeling when Finally having time to sit down and actually rest with nothing to prepare or plan feels like submerging your ears in the water at a loud swimming pool...

I have really reached my limit this week mentally and physically. I often struggle with post summer burnout in September/October but this week I had to function perfectly during work and so many social obligations whereas I had things to prepare for or join in. I didn't get any real me time to unwind because I had to run errands and prepare things til late in the night. Never getting to bed before 3 or 4 am... I ran on sleep deprivation an burnout. Yesterday I was close to the point of breaking down exhaustion. I felt my knees almost give out in the store... Now it's finally over I have finally time for me with nothing to prepare for others. I will probably have a hardcore social shutdown but thb I need it

Good self confidence.
Good exercise
Good Sleep
Good Food
Good Spirituality

im onto somethan

When your husband forgets you sleep crazy and passes by the bed at 3am and touches your shoulder and you nearly take out his nuts. Sorry babe! xD

Gotta be up for work in 3 hours, and cant sleep. I hate this