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Battle on the High Seas

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It's this time of the year. Me, playing Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines, The Final Nights mode. My avatar is a hot chick, Baali Clan. Devil worshipers. Cannot raise Humanity > 6 due to black hearts. Here are some screenshots:

Have you ever had that nagging sensation that you're out of place among the wrong people? Lately, I've struggled to find any opportunities at the place where I live. It feels like months have gone by with only empty promises from work, leaving me burnt out and unable to enjoy even the simplest pleasures.

I can't shake this profound loneliness I've experienced for weeks, and it's perplexing since I’m in a relationship. It's odd when you are being told that they are here for you and to try to respond to this as often as possible on the same level, even when your social battery is depleted, yet still feel so utterly isolated. The depths of my depression have made it hard to get out of bed for days, with tears flowing freely.

Am I misguided in my expectations of what a relationship should be? When I realize that a house is on fire, for example, and I hear some calls for help, I try to rescue this person from it if possible and don’t avoid it because it might be too “hot.” I believe in stepping into the flames to support those I love, to hold their hand as we navigate the chaos together. Yet, here I am, feeling like I’m trapped in my own burning house while my partner stands outside, unsure whether to come in or watch from a distance.

I’m left feeling so conflicted… I love my partner deeply, yet I also feel profoundly abandoned and overlooked. I want to believe that love can withstand these moments of despair, that we can face life’s struggles as a team. But the distance created by unspoken words and unmet expectations feels like an insurmountable wall between us.

I often wonder if I’m asking for too much—if my desire for connection is unreasonable in a world that often seems too chaotic to handle. Shouldn't a partner be a safe haven, a source of comfort during the storm? Or am I just searching for validation in all the wrong places?

The fear of losing that connection, of being vulnerable and showing my true self, holds me back. There are days I crave honesty, but what if that honesty exposes too much? What if it reveals the depths of my struggles, and in response, all I receive is pity instead of understanding?

So this woman In a relationship sits down next to her friend and she has black eyes and the friend says "why do you stay in that abusive relationship?" She responds "beat the hell outta me."

My 1 year lasting project of transforming the whole floor into meeting room area and setting the Logitech equipment that was shipped to us for that purpose is finally coming to an end. I can't feel more accomplished than I already am. Seeing this is my first time I actually tackled such a huge project it's even more rewarding to know that everything works thanks to me. I'm tired now.
Seeing how this place looks now compared to how it looked a year ago when I first joined the company is beautiful...

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#cabin #forest #woods #autumn #winter
After chopping woods all day long, you end up reading The Fellowship of the Ring next to your fireplace...

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