The worst feeling of betrayal and loneliness is realizing they didn't really mean it when they said 'always'...
They meant only when it's not too much of a burden to carry for them... And then you are left all alone almost abandoned with that darkness you were finally trying to open up on...
And that's why some people start speaking silence and live through entire tragedies in silence. Because no one bears to listen but themselves. And that's what trapps you in thst perpetual cycle of being a good listener to others but never be heard out.
I'm so sick and tired of being emotionally exploited and permanently abandoned by others. Good enough as an emotional landfill.
Real friendship is a myth...

"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

#Turkey #Turkiye #earthquake #HAARP #frequencies #disinformation #Istanbul #Constantinople #ship

https://www.turkiyetoday.com/lifestyle/turkiye-refutes-haarp-conspiracy-theories-regarding-april-23-istanbul-earthquake-150278/

I worship BIG LENNY

#AI_generated #AI #Viking #Viking_Warships

im gonna need a sponsorship from Monster E drinks & Winston hard Ciggarettes.

I. Have. Been. Emailed. By. A. Cruiseship. Company. From. Hong. Kong. Regarding. Job. Opportunities.
Did not think twice and sent them my CV.

"‘No More Diversity Training’: Military Recruitment Skyrockets"

Perhaps with Trump, Vance and Hegseth, young men are again interested in the military. Strength is an appealing quality in leadership. =)

For those of you with a reaction channel and don't like censorship...there is an explicit version. The way God intended and if you were alive back in 1990, you'd know this!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msrq0HjwJUM