I have been thinking of getting a facial piercing for a while now.. Do you think a labret would suit me ? Put a fake one on my lip a few weeks ago and took a picture. But I can't decide of I like or hate it. I kinda hate seeing myself in most of the selfies I take, except for cosplay pics in which im literally not myself. I have been struggling with body dismorphia and self-esteem a lot lately...so I need a confidence boost...

Literally me breaking up with my now ex

#massage #wife

My wife last night: 'You can literally do NOTHING in order to satisfy me after a long and tiresome week!'

My wife after 10 minutes:

Haven't had whole lot of time to be on here. working like crazy past few days people REALLY freak out here and are like oh my god its snowing quick lets raid the co-op's...yeah been that busy. I guess as humans a few of us have evolved with no common sense whatsoever like my neighbor, i finally had it and went to the cops with my mom and had a great respectful conversation with an officer, i went out on my deck the night after and did a fake very loud cell phone call, acting like i was on the phone with the cops to freak out my neighbor, his dog is immensely stupid and barks literally at nothing, as i'm typing this now and his dog barked, its that dumb. he's been quiet for a bit now and i'm hoping it worked, really would suck to call them though but it might be necessary ,still want my neighbor to move out so someone of actual quality can live there...

Putting in genuine effort feels like wasted effort sometimes. It's like people have this standard of movie-like perfection that just doesn't exist naturally, or without proper communication.

I feel humiliated and depressed, and on top of that I feel like the bad guy for having those emotions.

I feel like I've put genuine thought and effort into making this person feel important. I've stuck by and listened; really, genuinely listened.

All of that just to be left waiting, without any kind of heads up, flowers and gifts in hand, all dressed up and wanting to make it a special day.

Only to be stood up and told that no man has ever or will ever put any kind of real effort.

Was it not enough effort? Or am I just not a man?

I let myself be vulnerable enough to want to build a relationship again.

Even if it wasn't meant as a direct attack, I still feel disrespected.

I had no foul intentions. And my feeling were true.

I'm still processing how to feel and respond.

Idk, I'm just ranting and venting here so I can get it out of my system.

I didn't think I'd feel this hurt.

But oh well, love finds a way.

With someone, at some point in my life. Maybe someone else.

I'm going to keep putting in that effort, but for someone who appreciates the little gestures as much as the grand gestures.

I have my friends, I have my dog, and I have myself.

The rest will work itself out when it's time I guess.

First day back at work after 2 Weeks vacation and I am greeted with my substitute not having done ANY of the work I had prepared for him...I I literally pre digested the project for him!

Ironically, when he went on vactation in october I had to take over this project for him and he hadn't even worked on it yet, nor had he prepared anything for handover... I had to gather all of the info on my own.
Then I was even so nice to not get revenge and still prepare handover materials for him and what does he do? Nothing. And he's so casual about it!

Literally lol

I'm logging off in 18 minutes. If the whole office burns down, I literally don't care until I'm back on the 6th of January, next year.
Time to get home soon and start packing the stuff prior to flying to Germany tomorrow morning.

This is literally how I feel like after I just found out that our "performance based culture" isn't that much a performance based culture and I will get nothing for literally building this place up on my own...I guess I'm being skipped on the next promotion too then.

Merry Christmas and whatnot. :D

This song is literally made for December misery and depression. :D :D :D