Literally, lol

Literally laughing at the Stupid Europeans, lol

The female mind literally can't comprehend sticks.

The doctrine of signatures.
No one dies for a lie.
Something can't come from nothing.
Literally many believers seeing the same face and identifying it as Jesus

Getting through (or trying to) one of the toughest work weeks I've ever had,thanksgiving week right before always is insane and it doesn't stop there (I think I mentioned last year the turkeys literally "Flying off the shelves") not getting my hopes up for a chill week this week at all,I do have some PTO so I might try to plan something if I'm able,I never like to stop or quit so I just go go go as much as I can...I DID get to go see Spirit Box with Periphery and another band,it was a great concert as I've been a fan of SpiritBox for awhile. My best friend of 13 years and I went,upgraded our seats from the standing balcony to sitting with tables,totally worth it! The bands we all tight and so so talented,SpiritBox totally kicked butt and my neck is still recovering from all the headbanging I did,overall amazeing and much needed !

I'm on the verge of crying. I'm literally panicking. Another health issue came up that needs immediate medical procedure. This that gives me the worst anxiety on multiple levels...if I'm unlucky it will not only make me really ugly and I struggle with dismorphia, but also also what I fear most, it will delay my treatment yet again... possibly for several weeks. I finally got a fixed appointment for getting the blood drawn for testing first thing but now I fear the new issue can't wait and needs to be fixed immediately there is akute pain....they probably can't test my blood if there is residual narcotics and painkillers on my system....
Like my anxiety was not already bad since yesterday for other reasons. Now this...I'm really panicking right now. Why is it all breaking at once??

Ok I need to breathe and wait se how bad the pain gets today prepare for being incapacitated by meds while I still can and if I get worse I go to the doctor tomorrow first thing. Good thing I live right next door. Maybe it just got painful because I was feeling the swelling I know I shouldn't drag it out and fix acute things immediately. But the following issues of delayed treatment will be detrimental too possibly reshaping my future entirely.

There was a comedian back in the day who had a bit about titty fucking a crocodile down in Florida. You can't do that. Not because it's morally offensive and illegal, but crocs are reptiles. They lack mammalian glands, hence the name mammals, and it is physically impossible.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75r0nQu-hMs

I love how my grandpa literally died yesterday and nobody told me. I have to find out on Facebook as if I don't have a brother or a dad that can let me know these things.

INDIANA
Starting: 1/1/2026
Restricts: Restricts purchase of soft drinks and candy.
Additional Notes : Soft drinks defined as "non-alcoholic beverages that contain natural or artificial sweeteners. The term does not include beverages that contain milk or milk products, soy, rice, or similar milk substitutes, or are exclusively naturally sweetened using natural vegetable and/or fruit juice,” and "candy," defined as "a preparation of sugar, honey, or other natural or artificial sweeteners in combination with chocolate, fruits, nuts, or other ingredients or flavorings in the form of bars, drops, or pieces. The term does not include any preparation requiring refrigeration.”

Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...