To say 2024 completely blows is an understatement....getting my gullbladder removed on the 15th just had an MRI on my brain for the severe migraines I've been plagued with and still have to do a long-term EEG. That will be 72 hours of monitoring me but hopefully it yields some results. I could completely lose it if they don't end my suffering so I'm hoping they can pinpoint the location of the epilepic activity

You ever just talk to someone and think I know the wheel is turning but the hamster is most definitely fucking dead. This was how my morning went.

Well to say 2024 isn't going as I had suspected is an understatement it takes so long to get a brain scan I've been waiting since June 2023 and my appointment isn't until February I will recieve my scan 6 days after my 32nd birthday, the other Neurologist I went to is a complete bitch so I scrapped all hopes of working with her when I told her to go fuck herself she was happy to hear that one lol hopefully soon things change as it stands my gullbladder is dysfunctional so I'm gonna follow up on that and see where that leads me but we now know more than we knew in 2023 so I am celebrating my small victory.

Yep this hospital really sucks at putting an IV in but i am lucky because I stayed completely calm in this process I didn't feel the pain until maybe a day later.

Okay so it's time for a bit of a dark topic I deal with this feeling every other night. Does anyone know why this happens. It seriously freaks me the hell out. I cannot get in to see a neurologist until January 9th.

Have you ever just felt like life is no longer worth struggling through? some part of me just completely gave up. Things are so hopeless in this moment and I can't fix it. I've been sick so long I just don't care anymore. Tired of fighting it.