It's raining

Haven't had a whole lot of free time this summer ,working, working on alot of music and working out everyday in the mornings ,family stuff, creating heavy heavy music and battle jackets. The concert i was supposed to attend ended up being a bust (see my previous post) the band who is from Maryland DROVE (didn't fly) the 13 hours to MN for the concert ,they got here around 10pm,we ll MN noise lays are 10pm so the concert got canceled and the band was literally RIGHT THERE ! to say the least im still getting over this as i take my music pretty seriously and this was going to be a show of a lifetime, instead of heading home straight away i stuck and and chatted with a few other people there and ended up staying downtown at the venue till like 1:00 in the morning just talking, made some new friends i would say, had some CRAZY dude jacked up on lots of something get in our faces while we were playing music on our phones, some dude was fighting invisible enemies while waiting for the light rail train, people screaming at each other ,the usual downtown MN for you there. overall though the night was not wasted and i'm looking forward to getting merch from the show as well as my next concert.. hopefully sooner than later.

https://youtu.be/gPIzJRcKFoA?si=jq0HE6YegkCfprva
Loves and Head-Bangs towards Lena S. and Infected Rain!!

I tried I really tried...but it happens again... I'm trying to not be invisible. And at result I've become painfully visible just utterly disregarded...

There is a heavy Rain in my head but no one wants to look out the windows because facing the clouds is too depressing for them...They rather look at their reflection I the windows.



Why am I so stupid, forgiving and hopeful and keep trying? I save myself so much disappointment if I just close up and suffer in silence.

President Trump removing all US Sanctions against Syria, is something I dont agree with.

9/11 hijackers were all or mostly all Saudi Arabian, They Were all members of Al Qaeda .

In Syria, We have an Al Qaeda linked/Member Saudi Arabian as "President" and in my book, President Trump is just begging for another 9/11 attack against us, if he follows France in treating this Al Qaeda Saudi President (Syria) like a "RockStar" .

THese Cults of Personalities for both Zelensky and now, the new Syrian Saudi Al Qaeda "President" and the glorification of the Ukraine Dictator and Al Qaeda, needs to come to an end.

If another 9/11 happens on President Trumps watch by removing all sanctions against Syria (which is in the control of Al Qaeda), then yes, an impeachment and removal from office would be greatly justified.

The planet is fine. All the Crap we choose to flush down the drain gets RE-uptaken by the amazing PLANTS kingdom. Everything is allright.

"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

This woman never disappoints me when it comes to making songs that speak to my soul and tickle my brain I love her music and I'm so grateful she pursuited a musical career even though she was forbidden to...
Her music always comforts me darkest times.
yhttps://youtu.be/x7Pw91G__GA?si=TPBbFzitPQDB0gpR

"Look at you comforting others with the words you wish to hear" Again only been seen when I'm of use... A friend of mine is texting me. I thought she wanted to check on me because I told her 2 werks ago that I'm down the ditch and not doing well...turns out she's just bored because she sprained her ankle and can't go out and her dick boyfriend does not do shit to entertain her... She's an extrovert so she thrives outside with company...
I'm just the entertainment and the emotional dump to rant about her bf again...not a single question on how I have been doing...

Kinda stuck in some sort of volunteering overtime at work til there local rainstorm stops... Or at least pauses for a few minutes...
Next time I'm taking the boat instead of the bike :D