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  • So since DHL was nice enough to wake me after barely having even 4 hours of sleep because I partied too hard, I might as well post songs and get myself coffee to sober up.
    At least I am getting my camera delivered next week, Tuesday, so that's something positive.

    So since DHL was nice enough to wake me after barely having even 4 hours of sleep because I partied too hard, I might as well post songs and get myself coffee to sober up. At least I am getting my camera delivered next week, Tuesday, so that's something positive.
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  • https://youtu.be/DttHaTFFRAU?si=8mZ2hJdEZNTSn9gO

    I love this commercial. Shows how something negative can become positive.
    https://youtu.be/DttHaTFFRAU?si=8mZ2hJdEZNTSn9gO I love this commercial. Shows how something negative can become positive.
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  • Positively more satany . . . https://youtu.be/Tm4S1PbgV6Y
    Positively more satany . . . https://youtu.be/Tm4S1PbgV6Y
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  • Ahhh. My depression & anxiety is back to a 10. Three days ago we where told we have to move because our landlord is selling our home. Again. We were not finically prepared and have only 1 option. Noah n I r moving into a trailer at my fathers, I can’t bring my animals because they will b confined n neglected. My dog I’ve had 8years barks if left alone, n we both work full time. Etc. PJ is looking for a place to live, my nephew has to move back to Arizona, he’s been with me since my brother passed away n our friend/roommate was crying in our driveway when we pulled in last night from taking a load of my stuff to storage.
    This has made me physically ill. I’m soooooooo unhappy with moving into this situation however no one has the $ to pay first,last night security deposit @ a new place this fast other then our roommate n I, n I go out of the country for a month sept 3.
    I’m very worried about the stress this is gonna put in my relationship with pj & I’m still trying to finish my paintings for my solo show in a week in Orlando.
    I’m gonna make the best out of it, but it’s very hard to see anything positive about it. Living on my father’s property is immensely repressive and his personally is unusually difficult. he kicked us out 3 months ago because of small annoyances. He gave us 2 days to move. I swore I would never return & I stopped shooting daily life videos then because I’ve been so depressed. I just got on medication for my depression a week ago. Ahhh, the eggshells to walk on with my father or it will happen again.
    I have had no stability since 2018. Moving constantly, Landloards selling my home repeatedly without enough time to properly prepare for next chapter. I’m soooo glad I was never able to have kids, just seeing the stress this has put on my relationships & animals is horrible. I can’t imagine dragging a child through the shit that has been my life.
    I don’t share this to often, it’s to private and ugly, but this has been the second worse chapter of my life.
    With all the death, displacement & deletion of the platforms I have worked so hard on, it’s been very hard to want to move forward. My x that left me in 2018, when this all started. Loosing my st pete home I was in 8 years n my resort, often joked that “my life was in shambles”. Loosing him was devastating during that change. I’m grateful for PJ & Noah for sticking around. PJ 15 years, Noah 3 years. I’ve moved 7 times since I’ve been with Noah the last 3 years. This will be the 8th. PJ was crying in his sleep last night. His girlfriend of 4 years just ended it with him a month ago & he’s been taking it very hard.
    (Pj, Noah & I are polyamorous) I’m lucky in that field.
    There is sooooooo much more but that’s is only the stuff that I can say publicly.
    I have cryed soooo much in the last couple days my mussels hurt & im dehydrated. I wish I had 3 months to prepare. It’s 3-4am n I can’t sleep and I have work at 5am. I just want my life to stop sucking. I’m sick of pretending everything is ok. I just want to be ok. Even if only for 6 months without loosing someone or something huge.
    At least I no longer have to sleep in the bed, in the bedroom of my x Drew who died a year ago while he had been living with us off n on for 10 years. I still dream of him, not living in our space will help me move on from that trama. There is a silver ligning.

    Instagram.com/XZanthia_OctoShroom
    Ahhh. 😩 My depression & anxiety is back to a 10. Three days ago we where told we have to move because our landlord is selling our home. Again. We were not finically prepared and have only 1 option. Noah n I r moving into a trailer at my fathers, I can’t bring my animals because they will b confined n neglected. My dog I’ve had 8years barks if left alone, n we both work full time. Etc. PJ is looking for a place to live, my nephew has to move back to Arizona, he’s been with me since my brother passed away n our friend/roommate was crying in our driveway when we pulled in last night from taking a load of my stuff to storage. This has made me physically ill. I’m soooooooo unhappy with moving into this situation however no one has the $ to pay first,last night security deposit @ a new place this fast other then our roommate n I, n I go out of the country for a month sept 3. I’m very worried about the stress this is gonna put in my relationship with pj & I’m still trying to finish my paintings for my solo show in a week in Orlando. I’m gonna make the best out of it, but it’s very hard to see anything positive about it. Living on my father’s property is immensely repressive and his personally is unusually difficult. he kicked us out 3 months ago because of small annoyances. He gave us 2 days to move. I swore I would never return & I stopped shooting daily life videos then because I’ve been so depressed. I just got on medication for my depression a week ago. Ahhh, the eggshells to walk on with my father or it will happen again. I have had no stability since 2018. Moving constantly, Landloards selling my home repeatedly without enough time to properly prepare for next chapter. I’m soooo glad I was never able to have kids, just seeing the stress this has put on my relationships & animals is horrible. I can’t imagine dragging a child through the shit that has been my life. I don’t share this to often, it’s to private and ugly, but this has been the second worse chapter of my life. With all the death, displacement & deletion of the platforms I have worked so hard on, it’s been very hard to want to move forward. My x that left me in 2018, when this all started. Loosing my st pete home I was in 8 years n my resort, often joked that “my life was in shambles”. Loosing him was devastating during that change. I’m grateful for PJ & Noah for sticking around. PJ 15 years, Noah 3 years. I’ve moved 7 times since I’ve been with Noah the last 3 years. This will be the 8th. PJ was crying in his sleep last night. His girlfriend of 4 years just ended it with him a month ago & he’s been taking it very hard. (Pj, Noah & I are polyamorous) I’m lucky in that field. There is sooooooo much more but that’s is only the stuff that I can say publicly. I have cryed soooo much in the last couple days my mussels hurt & im dehydrated. I wish I had 3 months to prepare. It’s 3-4am n I can’t sleep and I have work at 5am. I just want my life to stop sucking. I’m sick of pretending everything is ok. I just want to be ok. Even if only for 6 months without loosing someone or something huge. At least I no longer have to sleep in the bed, in the bedroom of my x Drew who died a year ago while he had been living with us off n on for 10 years. I still dream of him, not living in our space will help me move on from that trama. There is a silver ligning. 😩 Instagram.com/XZanthia_OctoShroom
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  • #POTUS #Biden #virus #COVID #COVID_19 #positive

    https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cv2gj8314nqo
    #POTUS #Biden #virus #COVID #COVID_19 #positive https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cv2gj8314nqo
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    Biden tests positive for Covid, White House says
    President forced to cancel campaign speech in Las Vegas after presenting with mild symptoms.
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  • Top surgery on August 5th! Send well-wishes, prayers, good vibes, or whatever positive things your beliefs can send!
    Top surgery on August 5th! Send well-wishes, prayers, good vibes, or whatever positive things your beliefs can send!
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  • On a positive note. The winter heating bills are quite reasonable for those Bjork lovers.

    On a positive note. The winter heating bills are quite reasonable for those Bjork lovers.
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  • some positive vibes. im so gratefull cause today i got some food- NEver taking it for granted.
    some positive vibes. im so gratefull cause today i got some food- NEver taking it for granted.
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  • I had cake. That's pretty much the only positive thing that happened at work today. :D
    I had cake. That's pretty much the only positive thing that happened at work today. :D
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  • Let me tell ya, the older kids gave little Hebrew a hard time back in the day...but it was tough love. One positive memory left from an ancient time, it's the music. All the reason and rhyme.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9h2H5Sgzfw
    Let me tell ya, the older kids gave little Hebrew a hard time back in the day...but it was tough love. One positive memory left from an ancient time, it's the music. All the reason and rhyme. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9h2H5Sgzfw
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