Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ug8hdSJEYrI

"Why is Kristi Noem Using Venezuelan Gang Members as Backdrop to Social Media Video? With Ruthless"

Megyn Kelly is completely wrong about this and its obvious, that she still hates Kristi N. for the animal abuse/Killing and you know what? We all took issue with this when KN first brought her animal abuse to light and for the most part, everyone rejected her.

President Trump chose KN for DHS and guess what? Us normal people have given KN the chance to "do right" and allow her the opportunity to do the job. And she has done a great job, People like myself, support her because if President Trump trusts her, then we should too, give her a chance to redeem herself.

As far of Megyn Kelly criticizing how she "Looks" (Noem) looks in the video, its just sour grapes and disdain. What does MK expect? For Noem to show up in her underwear only and look like an unkept guy?

Sorry MK, but females actually do care how they look, especially, if its a female in a high position like her, making a speech! As it is, KN isn't even that well dressed in the vid, she looks like she put on a shirt and a pair of pants and headed to work, like a lot of Americans do. Making fun of her "Skin-tight" shirt, absolute pettiness.

MK was too blinded by hatred that she didn't realize that the message of the vid is basically a warning: Come in illegally and break our law, and you'll end up with these criminals who did the same.

And if the shoe was on the other foot, MK would definitely be so well dressed, she'd put Noem's outfit to shame, hypocrite Kelly.

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Sounds good, I'm interested!

Oh dear, the next few days will probably require a lot of masking...
There are so many project presentations coming up that I have to lead, and tomorrow we have a big company event where it was mentioned that I'll be photographed more often, as a showpiece so to speak.
On the one hand, I see the whole thing as an opportunity to consolidate certain positions for myself, but on the other hand, I'm being pushed hard into the center of attention, which I don't really like.

Well, now it's time to make myself 'pretty' so that I don't look quite so shitty tomorrow.
Hopefully I can sleep despite the intense anxiety...

I am a massive Vtuber fan and absolutely will talk about them until I physically can't if given the opportunity lmao.

Scarlet Blackfire: "Thunder Mountain Park"
Another witchy inspired goth crossplay that was inspired by the one and only Anjelica Rose A.K.A Drackuanjelica on Instagram was done early morning at the Bridal Cave Thunder Mountain Park The weather was at its best in every way with the fall trees at full color.
The Halloween and Fall display was the perfect backdrop for this picture opportunity. I have many plans and videos for this park in mind in the future. Once again it was great to do this crossplay with little to no trouble. Later on, I'll show an extra I took days before this crossplay. I think you will like it just as much.
#halloween #halloweenfun #cosplay #crossplay #BridalCave #thundermountain #witch #pumpkin #fishnets #inspired #fallvibes #fall #LakeoftheOzarks #gothic #goth

A toast to Jimmy Buffett!

No, not a cheeseburger in paradise to go with the lovely margaritas - quesadillas instead.

Definitely grateful for having had the opportunity to see him live! Quite the experience, it was.

RIP, you old pirate!

Opportunity will step out of the way to let a man pass it by, these are wise words that I live by.
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#grungeaesthetic #anime #metalgirl #rave #artist #alternativestyle #gothmodel #altfashion
#raver #cosplayer #ravergirl #cosplaygirl

#opportunity