Looks like its an early night for me. Little old me didn't read my new work contact; I am contacted 'AM' but with no set hours. Guess who has to open up the shift? Me, I start instead of 8 AM, now 7 AM, we have no staff at that time, or manager's. It has been thrown around the office like a live gernade and exploded on me! Alcoholism not good excuse to justify why I need the extra hour in bed; there is a silver lining I get to leave at 3 PM. Extra drinking time!

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

Instead my head will explode.

This thing will blow up in 20 Years when the victims are older just like the Nickelodeon abuse scandal did and then people will be asking
Why did people bring their kids to drag queen story hour?
Good on this group for standing against it all!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5X7XzKhN6LE

Sudo brain explode

T-minus 10 days until baby time! My emotions have suddenly exploded and I've been happy crying all morning.

My legs and arms are so pumped I feel like they might explode. I'm going to go fight batman now. Fuck that guy

how the f*ck do you stop hiccups??? ive had them nonstop for like 4 days in a row. my chest feels like it wants to explode by now

Got my booster now time to explode