"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

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This makes me happy on so many levels!

My antisocial levels are skyrocketing. My mother spent a week at my appartment (for a treatment she´s doing nearby) and in that week she ended up knowing more people than me in 4 years. Their names, relatives, jobs, pets, etc. She even told me the entire life story of the woman living at the end of the corridor of my floor. And I didn´t even know there was a lady living there.

All with different Authorities & Acces LEVELS

Obsolescence wants to have a drink with y'all this weekend. All praise him for keeping the alcohol reserves at moderate levels so the rest of humanity (specifically alcoholics) don't suffer too much in case of an apocalyptic event.

After almost 18 hours without power, it was restored!

I don't know exactly when it came back on - was on generator power. I had texted the utility company's automated system, and it replied back (paraphrasing): "Yo, dummy - you have power...why are you asking us the status?" I go flip the switches to change from generator power back to the utility, and sure enough - it was back.

Having multiple levels of redundancy for power (whole-house generator, as well as a big-ass battery and inverter for more important loads, like heat, and the refrigerator) is something I'm truly grateful for!

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Today is giving me a migraine on so many levels...

I'm on the weird edge between being excited and not wanting tomorrow to come. My working self is totally not looking forward to tomorrow. I have to be at work 1 1/2 hours earlier than usual. I hate getting up so fucking early.
But my private self has been looking forward to Friday all week.
And my introvert self is kinda afraid. It will be a long and exhatusting day on so many levels.