"Don't let your mind bully your body"
I should engrave that onto my bathroom mirror...
my self view on so many aspects beside body image has been very bad lately because of depression and feeling abandoned by all my close friends ... like I'm not worth to be kept around. It has started to affect my body too...I'm starting to have ED behavioral patterns come back and starting to have some weird health issues... Now I need to run to the overcrowded doctors again. It's so much of a hassle to get appointments and don't miss outvon work. Where I have to outperform at the moment too bc I got a new boss and want a raise...

PSA: Trolls & spam

Reading the room I get the feeling most people think this place is dead, I'll agree! I also see alot of whiners in feed talking about spam and trolls, pucker up buttercup!

There's nothing more fun than people with retarded takes, and a troll's reply, maybe if people were not so vapid, unorginal, and eager to turn every part of the internet into a fucking hugbox maybe you, and the places you go would be more fun.

Also what's with all this feelings matter bullshit; people say mean things, reply with banter, learn to take a fucking joke, or ingore people. If that's impossible for you, fuck off, I suggest a gag, blindfold, and isolation as the real world is the same. LEARN TO TAKE A FUCKING JOKE!

I'm back brothers and sisters, some are thinking oh no and some are thinking oh yeah! Eirther way I'm back to mess up the feed, and bully the cry bullies! Time to add chaos and hurt feelings to the feed!

Good for her!. So courageous and fierce. The average Joe Six Pack seems to forget that entertainers have feelings, too. Their own struggles and a cross to bear. Godspeed, Miss Swift!

https://variety.com/2025/music/news/taylor-swift-buys-rights-first-six-albums-shamrock-1236413964/

having 2 drive around in a bobcat now that my spine is brocken; feeling like i am a fucking amine robot like sum shit from evengaylion

Stopped replying to people last week and now I'm not sure if I'm starting to feel better because I'm not burdened with their bullshit anymore or if I just became apathetic to protect myself from feeling worse because no one took my silence for concern or even bothered to ask why I am not replying... they're not even getting offended of being ignored, which was what I kinda expected or more to say what I wanted to provoke. I wanted the "why are you ignoring me" to hit them back with "Same to you. Why do you disregard my troubles but expect me to jump when you are in need of an open ear"

Well guess that shows how little they actually care...

chewign on the zyn like its fucking gum feeling upstopable and feral

The worst feeling of betrayal and loneliness is realizing they didn't really mean it when they said 'always'...
They meant only when it's not too much of a burden to carry for them... And then you are left all alone almost abandoned with that darkness you were finally trying to open up on...
And that's why some people start speaking silence and live through entire tragedies in silence. Because no one bears to listen but themselves. And that's what trapps you in thst perpetual cycle of being a good listener to others but never be heard out.
I'm so sick and tired of being emotionally exploited and permanently abandoned by others. Good enough as an emotional landfill.
Real friendship is a myth...

Kinda been feeling bled dry lately and currently fleeing myself into an endless loop of doomwatching some historical documentaries post work.

I look at some upcoming events in my work and personal calendar that I've been looking forward to, and meanwhile I hear an inner voice whispering a quiet "why" to me....

I think I should take a vacation and go away... Far, far away from people

You know that feeling when all of a sudden you just feel depressed for no reason although you felt OK before?
Like someone flipped a switch inside you?