Nothing is attractive about being alive in this timeline anymore.... family and friends just are just leeches that suck me dry emotionally...future doesn't look too rosy with a war next door and major countries being ruled by tyrants, economy is also shit...I barely have energy to keep on. And now the small things about daily life also keep getting more complicated and annoying... It will be a hassle to find a parking spot for my car in future and simultaneously the resident parking passes have become 6x more expensive (and that doesn't ensure that you will get a parking spot). Oh and did I mention that I just learned that I earn 20% less than my colleague in the same position witht the same JD?
I am being exploited on every level and cheated for a happy future...
I was told if I worked hard in school and pursue an academic degree I will not have to worry about the future. I feel that's a lie....our generation is just fucked.

Kinda been feeling bled dry lately and currently fleeing myself into an endless loop of doomwatching some historical documentaries post work.

I look at some upcoming events in my work and personal calendar that I've been looking forward to, and meanwhile I hear an inner voice whispering a quiet "why" to me....

I think I should take a vacation and go away... Far, far away from people

VF vibes sans the catfish accounts.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp6BohG6iK0

So, a former coworker is fishing for sympathy on social media, because April was " one of the worst months of his life." Why? Well, he had to have one of his cats put down...I get that, he had that cat for about 13 years, and while I don't care for cats much myself, he does and after having it so long that must have been rough. But he is just as heart broken, if not more so, because his PS5 broke the same month. I'd expect that reaction if he were a kid, or even a teenager, but this guy's in his late 30s. Wtf.

Friendly reminder. This woman had a defication on Johnny Depps bed. You're welcome. Follow me for more useless reminders

I knew it.




I'm just not worth to be described. Because the only way im seen is when I function. When im useful.
How will anynoe describe me as anything elst than "the one that waters their plants on vacation" ot "that drives them around". Im not "the one with the soft bouncy curls" or "the one that always has paint on her Fingers" bc these little details that make me a person are never seen. They are not useful...

In slowly but surely falling into an even darker place...

Either I'm too stupid for social interactions or I'm just getting along with private social understandings a lot less lately than I already do.

I really don't have many friends, which is a shame because I normally like company, but my last experiences with company or trying to socialize or make friends were more or less a disaster.
I'm beginning to suspect that this is more of a primal human feeling of envy, not having many friends (greed for something more) when I look at the whole thing reflectively.

It's just ridiculous how clear and open communication is thrown out the window and is seen as a strange, perverse kind of challenge to some people.

I've just been invited to an Easter bonfire with wine and bread by the Catholic parish that lives next door to my apartment.
And I think to myself; haha why not?

Maybe they'll try to convert me xD
Or in the worst case scenario, my blasphemous butt ends up in the first row on the fire :D

https://i.imgur.com/gERG0lZ.jpg

Ben and Spookies having fun with their kitty cats, lol xD

#Deers