I don't know if it used really different before or if it's just a feeling, but when I think about vacation I always make a list of all the things I want to do that I don't have time or capacity during the work weeks.

Now I'm finally on vacation and the first thing I think about is just sleeping.
Sleeping... and not waking up.

i deleted the previous fabricated screengrab of darkfreaks because after deliberation it seems he's very autistic and im not into bashing people with disabilities tyvm

but even so i'd like to go on record to say that i dont think i ever interacted with him back on vampirefreaks, at least not directly and yet he had the gall to attack me indirectly and i felt i should at least get the last laugh

anyway its all water under the bridge

we now move forward to brighter horizons

where we might just get #gvn4admin

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Who cares what UK and Germany thinks about Trump's Ukraine Peace agenda, the UK Still lives in the middle ages and Germany is jailing ppl for memes, and attacking free speech. Trump is right, Zelensky is a Dictator, trying to cosplay as President Putin.

If Zelensky is afraid to have democratic elections, then that should be a clear indication that he's very unpopular for killing millions of Ukrainians, while profiting of their deaths, and would surely lose.

End the Dictatorship of Zelensky

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Putting in genuine effort feels like wasted effort sometimes. It's like people have this standard of movie-like perfection that just doesn't exist naturally, or without proper communication.

I feel humiliated and depressed, and on top of that I feel like the bad guy for having those emotions.

I feel like I've put genuine thought and effort into making this person feel important. I've stuck by and listened; really, genuinely listened.

All of that just to be left waiting, without any kind of heads up, flowers and gifts in hand, all dressed up and wanting to make it a special day.

Only to be stood up and told that no man has ever or will ever put any kind of real effort.

Was it not enough effort? Or am I just not a man?

I let myself be vulnerable enough to want to build a relationship again.

Even if it wasn't meant as a direct attack, I still feel disrespected.

I had no foul intentions. And my feeling were true.

I'm still processing how to feel and respond.

Idk, I'm just ranting and venting here so I can get it out of my system.

I didn't think I'd feel this hurt.

But oh well, love finds a way.

With someone, at some point in my life. Maybe someone else.

I'm going to keep putting in that effort, but for someone who appreciates the little gestures as much as the grand gestures.

I have my friends, I have my dog, and I have myself.

The rest will work itself out when it's time I guess.

I've never been simped or catfished, but I'm familiar with the river bottom.

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