you? loser who never did anythng goood in life
me? grew up playing brick tag and jerking off in huts i built

if you wanna game with me you will find me on kf 3 i dont play cod or bf or halo or gears or anything like that

So I know its been a hot minute since I tortured you sexy lot. I found out recently a bunch of friends of mine are pregnant ALL with boys which requires me to baby shop lol. I got issues lol. I've also been super busy with other projects and things at home. I know we all got shit going on and some days are better than others and I know sometimes life is hard as heel and frustrating as f*ck. I do not know what you are going through and I don't know what traumas you have endured.

I do know whatever you HAVE endured by others is not your fault. If your mind is saying you are worthless, it is lying. If your mind is telling you that you are a burden, it is lying. It is so easy to pull yourself a part because you feel less than but I promise you that you .... you lovely person,regardless of your gender, sexuality, ethnicity, religions belief or anything else, you are magically and beautifully made. So just for today... treat yourself kind.

if you dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all

sill mad how that dman dog bit me, he done fuked up.
Guess who's making broccoli and "chiken" 2nyt??????????!

I love good old fashioned racism, men in white hoods, being called a kike, being told to go home, a beating now and then, how my people control the banks and media. It was brutal but it was honest racism.

These days we have coded langague, people claiming to be virtuous while secreatly being the biggest mini-hilters you'll ever meet, especially in private chatrooms, and behind closed doors. Hypocrites all of them.

The worse bit; I'm sure some of these people do not see how racist they are; many know and don't care, anything to push their aganda at the cost of people; heed my warning; you'll get cannibalized in the end by the very people you used to get to the top.

(not sure if anyone reads this, but I think I just need a platform to shout out... not suited for everyone I guess btw..)
Living with Bipolar Disorder is just the worst... not sure if anyone else is dealing with this shit but the worst are those crashing episodes that you cannot foresee yourself.
Especially those Episodes where you just running internally mentally wild and the only thing you feel is just that anyone just want to betray and hurt you... even your closest ones.
In addition, when I'm in a breakdown, the ‘spectrum’ in me swings so hard that I literally become completely blind to communicative schemes and can no longer understand or interpret anything like indirect speech in any way (probably always the main reason why I try to withdraw from anyone).
In these phases, indirect language is as incomprehensible to me as a foreign language that I can't understand in any way. Unfortunately, very few people understand this because they are used to other ways of communicating with me.
I'm really not sure what triggered the current episode: the constant stress at work, the stress of being available for everyone and everything every second for the last few months, or my own realization and disappointment that I think I've made so many bad decisions in the past because of my good faith, which have destroyed paths I would have liked to take(career and study-wise).
However, I currently hate myself more than usual; not only for what I haven't achieved at the moment, but especially for the way I behave towards others uncontrollably during this phase.
I am unconsciously insulting and offending those who actually want the best for me.
I hide and deny the real causes until it is too late... (I'm such a coward)
I wish I would be fixable but I'm not I guess...

The worst thing is probably this post-episode in which you realize that not only the world itself is the problem, but that your own grievance towards others is also the problem in this world.
(No wonder why the S-rate is so high in this disorder circle, since most people can't find any other solution).

Maybe I just want someone to tell me directly and unhinged that they actual love me for what I am and that what I'm trying to achieve is enough

A Russian general has made a stark claim that WW3 has already started citing the war in the Middle East as a flashpoint. And if anyone knows anything about escalation of a global conflict, its the Russkies and their pointless incursion into Ukraine.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFBPLLfs_aA