I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days.
Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me.
I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...

the only thing i ever stood 10 toes on is my old bosses throat

me after i huff all the diesel and the boss asks me where it went

hehe writing the neshty on tumblr

#girlboss #manicpixie

Today has been hell, from abusive customers, to tech issues all day, and idiot bosses. It has tested me the usually reserved little old me. I’m not my happy go lucky mood, my porcelain face has cracked somewhat! Give me some time to compose myself and we’ll be back to our regular programming!

My attempt at making connie sgarbossa who is or was in seeyouspacecowboy in sims4 i couldnt get exact tattoos so i used these spooky Halloween tattoos i added my own touch by giving her a letter necklace
I had a hard time finding hair that looks like her actual hair

"Don't let your mind bully your body"
I should engrave that onto my bathroom mirror...
my self view on so many aspects beside body image has been very bad lately because of depression and feeling abandoned by all my close friends ... like I'm not worth to be kept around. It has started to affect my body too...I'm starting to have ED behavioral patterns come back and starting to have some weird health issues... Now I need to run to the overcrowded doctors again. It's so much of a hassle to get appointments and don't miss outvon work. Where I have to outperform at the moment too bc I got a new boss and want a raise...

ConsumedByDarkness Fick dich zur Seite jetzt kommt der Boss. "Kollegah - Wie ein Boss" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IE-iobe3bE

#boss #job #work #comedian

So my highlight of the day was when I lost my temper on a co-worker duing a teammeeting today and then I apologized to our boss for getting hot headed during the meeting & creating friction, she just said "don't worry about it, it was totally justified"