Passover is a week away. Easter a few days after. The Christian messiah was in Jerusalem to celebrate Passover before he was crucified. Personally, I prefer the Middle Eastern Jesus for historical accuracy but the European Jesus has chocolate bunnies and colorful eggs.

Personality quiz's are an absolute joke and people who believe in them are stupid!
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/DjueJ_U-2Sg

I just had a meltdown in the lab...because I'm burned and spent by this shit. This company has burned me completely and I'm just a walking pile of ash. Every passing day I wish more and more that I was one of the people that were layed off or that I would have an accident break and ankle or so and get a sick leave for a few weeks. Just to catch a breath and be an unexpected gap on the personal.
It's not the stress that's getting me I actually don't think the workload is overwhelming at the moment it's average and manageable. It's the lack of pay and appreciation that bothers me. I came on Saturdays I came on Sundays gave 110% to make them see that I am worth getting the same pay as the others and instead I get a warm sweaty handshake and a chocolate I can't even eat.
And I'm still trying to give a 110 percent that I don't even have in me anymore why because of revenge because I want it to hurt heavily when I leave and I want to see them in false security about my loyalty. But I'm not even sure that's worth it...
At this point I just wish for a new job opportunity and hope the company goes bankrupt so that I can get social support. I wouldn't get that for a few months if I resigned without a new job.

MPD (multiple personality disorder) is running rampant again

Cool trick: Next time someone says they care about you and would do anything for you, ask them for personal accountability. Shuts that shit down real quick.

Lately, When I express my genuine thoughts and concerns, it feels like a form of punishment.

This happens both at work, in meetings where input is supposedly valued, and in my personal life. My attempts to voice a concern or a different perspective are often dismissed as pessimism, exaggeration, or even egomania. It seems I am being penalized simply for having an opinion and for caring enough to be concerned.

Increasingly, I feel that I am being passively silenced—not with a direct command, but with subtle cues and reactions that make thinking feel like a forbidden act. I am being reduced to a sounding board, a wall for others to shout at, with no expectation of a reciprocal conversation. My role is not to contribute, but to absorb.

And then, people wonder. They wonder why I am burning out, why my energy and creativity have evaporated, why my motivation has dwindled to nothing. They don't see the cumulative weight of being silenced.
I notice that the situation is gradually affecting my body. I currently only sleep with a tight chest and painful breathing, and I wake up in the middle of the night with my heart racing.

As long as consenting adults freely choose to enter into a partnership, the government has no right to interfere. Marriage, like any other agreement, should be a matter of personal liberty.
The state should not issue or deny marriage licenses. Instead, it should only enforce contract law: protecting property rights, inheritance, and child custody agreements (the same way it would for any other private contract.)

So if someone makes the comment I wish this room wasn't so small (in reference to fitting two recliners in it instead of just a recliner and metal chair) what would your response be and would you see it as personal attack?