Been a weird just past few weeks,was listening to some quality stuff too today,much needed. Tried to head over to my local pizza joint down the road,end up waiting for like 15 minutes,some random guy like less then 2 feet from me (I have personal space issues) so I went home hungry in the pouring rain. Hopeing tommarrow is alot better.

I have the music taste of a trad goth, style of a mall goth and personality of a perky goth. #imjustme

I don't know any of you miscreants personally, but you know I appreciate the likes!

I was talking to someone yesterday and no matter what I said they were pissed at how I said it lol. Now don't get it twisted I can be an @sshole but in that moment I was actually trying to be helpful and they took it as a personal attack. I am not gonna lie I was laughing. It was funny, I felt like I was talking to my friends six year old child stomping his feet. By the time I was done I simply left the conversation and a mutual friend of ours was all what the hell did you say to him? The truth. Whoops. I do not know why some people ask questions just to get pissed off when they get the answer. Dude. Take a breather...and maybe a Xanax lol.

Passover is a week away. Easter a few days after. The Christian messiah was in Jerusalem to celebrate Passover before he was crucified. Personally, I prefer the Middle Eastern Jesus for historical accuracy but the European Jesus has chocolate bunnies and colorful eggs.

Personality quiz's are an absolute joke and people who believe in them are stupid!
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I just had a meltdown in the lab...because I'm burned and spent by this shit. This company has burned me completely and I'm just a walking pile of ash. Every passing day I wish more and more that I was one of the people that were layed off or that I would have an accident break and ankle or so and get a sick leave for a few weeks. Just to catch a breath and be an unexpected gap on the personal.
It's not the stress that's getting me I actually don't think the workload is overwhelming at the moment it's average and manageable. It's the lack of pay and appreciation that bothers me. I came on Saturdays I came on Sundays gave 110% to make them see that I am worth getting the same pay as the others and instead I get a warm sweaty handshake and a chocolate I can't even eat.
And I'm still trying to give a 110 percent that I don't even have in me anymore why because of revenge because I want it to hurt heavily when I leave and I want to see them in false security about my loyalty. But I'm not even sure that's worth it...
At this point I just wish for a new job opportunity and hope the company goes bankrupt so that I can get social support. I wouldn't get that for a few months if I resigned without a new job.

MPD (multiple personality disorder) is running rampant again