And just like that, my depression and anxiety combos have forced me to spend all day in bed barely moving a muscle and playing music so loud I'm surprised I didn't get any noise complaints (YET) :D :D

I think mother's day could have been better if we had the option to be by ourselves this years. I was too tired to put up with anyone outside my household, my back pain has been destroying me and being forced to socialize and go do a lot of walking just made it not great.

"But what about the other mothers you were with that day?"

I know, I know, I'm a selfish piece of shit and I must cater to everyone else at all times. Fuck me for wanting a mother's day to myself. Won't happen again.

What´s going on in Europe with all these islamic shts?. Why not send them back to the hell pit they came from?.

I honestly give a fck about how this sounds. Wake up and kick these shts out before you wake up one day with a knife on your throat and forced to surrender your mothers and sisters to them. It´s just a telephone call they need to turn into brainless zombies.

Forced reboot in 2 .... 4.... bye

I still have to post this... I am forced to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vpgx4ZsBJcA

The last few days really tested my self control... I swallowed a lot of my pride for the sake of peace. There was one situation though that was just plainly uncalled for and was definitely an effort to provoke me.
It was not friendly banter or teasing it was a provocation..I'm still mad about this.

But at least I had a blast at my best friend,'s Christmas party. I haven't seen most of the people in years.
Too bad that I will not be able spend new years eve with my much missed long distance friends...

I'll probably be forced to spend it alone....my body hates me.

Look who was forced to have bangs again.

So those 3M masks they all forced us to wear....... we were all just breathing in chemicals!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8qGtEVh7oQ

Wow the timing is again SO impecable. I am pretty sure life doesn't want me to recover from that emotional trauma. Whenever I start healing, feel better, life finds a way to rub salt and vinegar on the wound in my chest.
And I am forced to just keep smiling as if nothing just happened because i cannot ruin someone elses happy day. Beause "you cannot be like this because the topic is a sensible one for you. this is not about you"

I forced myself to do things to distract me yesterday. It kinda helped for now. I just fear it will all come crashing down on me the moment i am not distracted...
Currently im distracting myself by editing pictres from japanday that I still haven't edited...guess that will keep me busy for quite a while.