From the deepest of Red States, making Uncle Ted proud and somehow more patriotic!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pncni-ZB2s

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

Andy Griffith, wild rice, and Vietnam, Taiwan, and Zimbabwe.

Name a sheriff, pilaf, and no reciprocating tariff!

About to dive into a sativa honey oat bar and see how many bites it takes to get to the center of a brain drain.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vq-MHK0mmYo

#music #ambience #Bladerunner #cyberpunk #melancholia
https://youtu.be/VZjTLaASUVU