Watch this if you don`t wanna sleep.

Urgh I can't sleep thanks to overthinking...

This woke mob bullshit needs to be put to sleep for good. How can a bunch of homos be butthurt....I thought you liked pain in there. Deadpool and wolverine was a fucking great hilarious movie that made fun of everything. You idiots got to ruin the Olympics with your gay shit and we aren't allowed to stop it....so let us have our fun too. I hates what I saw at the Olympics so I turned it off and stopped watching. You delusional super insecure fucktards watched all of Deadpool and wolverine.....so you could get offended??? Fucking idiots.

Both Boys and Girls sleepovers sound fun to me! 😆

Ahhh. 😩 My depression & anxiety is back to a 10. Three days ago we where told we have to move because our landlord is selling our home. Again. We were not finically prepared and have only 1 option. Noah n I r moving into a trailer at my fathers, I can’t bring my animals because they will b confined n neglected. My dog I’ve had 8years barks if left alone, n we both work full time. Etc. PJ is looking for a place to live, my nephew has to move back to Arizona, he’s been with me since my brother passed away n our friend/roommate was crying in our driveway when we pulled in last night from taking a load of my stuff to storage. This has made me physically ill. I’m soooooooo unhappy with moving into this situation however no one has the $ to pay first,last night security deposit @ a new place this fast other then our roommate n I, n I go out of the country for a month sept 3. I’m very worried about the stress this is gonna put in my relationship with pj & I’m still trying to finish my paintings for my solo show in a week in Orlando. I’m gonna make the best out of it, but it’s very hard to see anything positive about it. Living on my father’s property is immensely repressive and his personally is unusually difficult. he kicked us out 3 months ago because of small annoyances. He gave us 2 days to move. I swore I would never return & I stopped shooting daily life videos then because I’ve been so depressed. I just got on medication for my depression a week ago. Ahhh, the eggshells to walk on with my father or it will happen again. I have had no stability since 2018. Moving constantly, Landloards selling my home repeatedly without enough time to properly prepare for next chapter. I’m soooo glad I was never able to have kids, just seeing the stress this has put on my relationships & animals is horrible. I can’t imagine dragging a child through the shit that has been my life. I don’t share this to often, it’s to private and ugly, but this has been the second worse chapter of my life. With all the death, displacement & deletion of the platforms I have worked so hard on, it’s been very hard to want to move forward. My x that left me in 2018, when this all started. Loosing my st pete home I was in 8 years n my resort, often joked that “my life was in shambles”. Loosing him was devastating during that change. I’m grateful for PJ & Noah for sticking around. PJ 15 years, Noah 3 years. I’ve moved 7 times since I’ve been with Noah the last 3 years. This will be the 8th. PJ was crying in his sleep last night. His girlfriend of 4 years just ended it with him a month ago & he’s been taking it very hard. (Pj, Noah & I are polyamorous) I’m lucky in that field. There is sooooooo much more but that’s is only the stuff that I can say publicly. I have cryed soooo much in the last couple days my mussels hurt & im dehydrated. I wish I had 3 months to prepare. It’s 3-4am n I can’t sleep and I have work at 5am. I just want my life to stop sucking. I’m sick of pretending everything is ok. I just want to be ok. Even if only for 6 months without loosing someone or something huge. At least I no longer have to sleep in the bed, in the bedroom of my x Drew who died a year ago while he had been living with us off n on for 10 years. I still dream of him, not living in our space will help me move on from that trama. There is a silver ligning. 😩 Instagram.com/XZanthia_OctoShroom

I'm back! It's been a while since my last update. The gallbladder removal was a success the pain medication was quite a trip and the EEG my health insurance is being complete queef chapels over no idea why. :( they started me on 50mg topamax for migraines and 500mg Keppra twice a day in the meantime which might I add is completely kicking my @$$. I sleep a lot nowadays. So far things are looking very gloomy as the Keppra has been making me fking stupid. 😂 I really hope that ends soon I've also been having some very super retarded dreams lately. I don't get it. 😵‍💫

So tired of the shit being pushed down our throat. I can honestly say I'd rather eternally sleep than be "woke" I'll never change my view on that. Accept it or block me.

So I Finally have a Sleepend (a weekend that is dedicated to sleep and relaxing without any social obligations and events) and guess what. These assholes from the construction site next door decided to put in some extra work on a saturday...I do sleep like the dead but a drill right into my bedroom wall wakes even this corpse....

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