#sleep #insomia

Contrary to my original plan of having a 'lazy Saturday', I spontaneously spent the whole day out and about on my bike.
Simply to escape the city and enjoy the rural idyll that surrounds the outermost city limits. The further I cycled, the less I wanted to go back.
It may sound strange, but resting next to a cow pasture and smelling the typical (perhaps not exactly inviting) smell of cattle somehow gives me a nostalgic feeling of childhood and home.
Even though I like living in a city and enjoying its benefits, I often miss the quiet, sleepy afternoons and evenings in a village.

But sleep now

I don't know if it used really different before or if it's just a feeling, but when I think about vacation I always make a list of all the things I want to do that I don't have time or capacity during the work weeks.

Now I'm finally on vacation and the first thing I think about is just sleeping.
Sleeping... and not waking up.

I swear getting up at 6.15 am is never easy no matter how much i sleep or could that be becsuse im almost 30 ?

Even though I'm only taking a few vacation days at the moment, I'm noticing that after a few weeks (if not months) I'm finally getting some rest.

It may sound strange, but I'm really happy that I'm able to sleep more than half of the day on average (without feeling bad) and without a stressed-out over-thinking mode keeping me awake.

Lots of crazy stuff this week,Been spending the night at my folks place because SADLY I can't even get sleep thanks to my neighbor. Calling the Cops tommarrow and hopefully throwing the guy out for good,been putting up with this crap far too long ! On the upside got to head over to the art Institute with my mom and niece,had not been back in a bit so it was a wonderful experience as always,turned a few heads with my battle jacket and leather spiked boots per usual,saw a few like minded people there too so it food to see a variety of folks attending. Finished the evening with a great dinner,few drinks and one of the Lord Of The Rings films.

So since DHL was nice enough to wake me after barely having even 4 hours of sleep because I partied too hard, I might as well post songs and get myself coffee to sober up.
At least I am getting my camera delivered next week, Tuesday, so that's something positive.

Oh dear, the next few days will probably require a lot of masking...
There are so many project presentations coming up that I have to lead, and tomorrow we have a big company event where it was mentioned that I'll be photographed more often, as a showpiece so to speak.
On the one hand, I see the whole thing as an opportunity to consolidate certain positions for myself, but on the other hand, I'm being pushed hard into the center of attention, which I don't really like.

Well, now it's time to make myself 'pretty' so that I don't look quite so shitty tomorrow.
Hopefully I can sleep despite the intense anxiety...