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  • Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed.
    Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen...
    I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here.
    I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.
    Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed. Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen... I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here. I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.
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  • body is failing cant eat and my skin is red allover
    body is failing cant eat and my skin is red allover
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  • Saw a group calld whore lovers it was justone person who seems like anoutstanding chronically online discrd reddit mod asking forwhore pics
    Peak internet right der
    Saw a group calld whore lovers it was justone person who seems like anoutstanding chronically online discrd reddit mod asking forwhore pics Peak internet right der
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  • It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force.

    What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.'

    I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?'

    Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.
    It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force. What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.' I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?' Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.
    Goth Vibes
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  • So i get an n word pass. Im a super light skin black male.
    So i get an n word pass. Im a super light skin black male.
    Rotten Laughs
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  • Got it installed and running, only things left I ned to swap the black cables, with white cabkes, and sleve the ones that cannot be changed. I need to swap the fans to matching ones. Finally install the NVME heatskins and anime ram caps. I'll get them when I pop over to Japan in a few weeks. Now need to fill the space with 7 x 10 TB Drives.
    Got it installed and running, only things left I ned to swap the black cables, with white cabkes, and sleve the ones that cannot be changed. I need to swap the fans to matching ones. Finally install the NVME heatskins and anime ram caps. I'll get them when I pop over to Japan in a few weeks. Now need to fill the space with 7 x 10 TB Drives.
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  • all you pimple brained toothless cocksuckers asking what a minivan is its when you have 2 fingers in front and 5 in the back (fist))
    all you pimple brained toothless cocksuckers asking what a minivan is its when you have 2 fingers in front and 5 in the back (fist))
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  • Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

    Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
    On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
    It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

    Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
    I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...
    Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed.... Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed... On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust. It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession... Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason.... I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...
    Dark Love
    I'm Dead
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  • What true starvation looks like:

    This is what true starvation looks like. Every time I see a Western news report claiming that the people of Gaza are starving, I see individuals who appear healthy, not reduced to skin and bone. Look again—closely this time. This is what real starvation looks like. I get angry when I see the media spreading lies. Sorry to be so serious but as a Jew I get tired of the lies and manipulation from the media.
    What true starvation looks like: This is what true starvation looks like. Every time I see a Western news report claiming that the people of Gaza are starving, I see individuals who appear healthy, not reduced to skin and bone. Look again—closely this time. This is what real starvation looks like. I get angry when I see the media spreading lies. Sorry to be so serious but as a Jew I get tired of the lies and manipulation from the media.
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  • HR have banned me from sending new hires on fools errands. This new girl would not stop asking me pointless questions during a group training session. So I told her to ask the Floor Manger for a long wait. They obliged. She stood there for 15 minutes before finally asking, “What exactly am I waiting for?”
    HR have banned me from sending new hires on fools errands. This new girl would not stop asking me pointless questions during a group training session. So I told her to ask the Floor Manger for a long wait. They obliged. She stood there for 15 minutes before finally asking, “What exactly am I waiting for?”
    Spooky Feels
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