Asking federal workers what they do...

Motherfuckers be having "manager" in their job title but asking me how to manage things. Happy fucking Monday.

Oh dear, the next few days will probably require a lot of masking...
There are so many project presentations coming up that I have to lead, and tomorrow we have a big company event where it was mentioned that I'll be photographed more often, as a showpiece so to speak.
On the one hand, I see the whole thing as an opportunity to consolidate certain positions for myself, but on the other hand, I'm being pushed hard into the center of attention, which I don't really like.

Well, now it's time to make myself 'pretty' so that I don't look quite so shitty tomorrow.
Hopefully I can sleep despite the intense anxiety...

Sorry for not engaging much in conversations or replying to messages. I have a lot going on in my head lately and also need to focus on my health. I don't feel like talking much. I have nothing much to say. Most interaction is just masking mechanisms.

For a few months now, I’ve been trying to go to the gym three times a week, if possible, even though I often have to find the motivation, especially after work. :D

Little by little, I’m starting to see progress in my body, especially when I look in the mirror in the morning and notice my improving natural posture and skin.

It’s an extreme contrast to look back at my past when I was constantly (and at times, very) overweight since childhood.

The right hand of Kamala's Vice President. And you are asking why we support Trump?

Have you ever had that nagging sensation that you're out of place among the wrong people? Lately, I've struggled to find any opportunities at the place where I live. It feels like months have gone by with only empty promises from work, leaving me burnt out and unable to enjoy even the simplest pleasures.

I can't shake this profound loneliness I've experienced for weeks, and it's perplexing since I’m in a relationship. It's odd when you are being told that they are here for you and to try to respond to this as often as possible on the same level, even when your social battery is depleted, yet still feel so utterly isolated. The depths of my depression have made it hard to get out of bed for days, with tears flowing freely.

Am I misguided in my expectations of what a relationship should be? When I realize that a house is on fire, for example, and I hear some calls for help, I try to rescue this person from it if possible and don’t avoid it because it might be too “hot.” I believe in stepping into the flames to support those I love, to hold their hand as we navigate the chaos together. Yet, here I am, feeling like I’m trapped in my own burning house while my partner stands outside, unsure whether to come in or watch from a distance.

I’m left feeling so conflicted… I love my partner deeply, yet I also feel profoundly abandoned and overlooked. I want to believe that love can withstand these moments of despair, that we can face life’s struggles as a team. But the distance created by unspoken words and unmet expectations feels like an insurmountable wall between us.

I often wonder if I’m asking for too much—if my desire for connection is unreasonable in a world that often seems too chaotic to handle. Shouldn't a partner be a safe haven, a source of comfort during the storm? Or am I just searching for validation in all the wrong places?

The fear of losing that connection, of being vulnerable and showing my true self, holds me back. There are days I crave honesty, but what if that honesty exposes too much? What if it reveals the depths of my struggles, and in response, all I receive is pity instead of understanding?

I have some creepy customer who keeps on inviting me to "hang out" at his place because he has parties at his house ,iv'e told him multipole times no and i'm waiting for him to stop asking its super awkward because he hasn't asked any of my other co-workers and ONLY invites me. its funny too because he makes all these signs and stuff for the parties,like saying there will be a fire outside,but its like 89 degress out so its just going to make everything hotter outside ??? ok ? yeah weird...

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