Just asking...are there really 456 people viewing my posts, or are that many lurkers so misanthropic that they can't even give me one comment regarding my attempt to communicate?

Hey [LeftBehind] I remember a post where you showed some indigene skin. Props for the sweetness and here's a song for those who came before us. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RzpRU347BDU

"sometimes we reduce communication from the people we love not because we hate them, but because we feel like we are nothing to them" I wonder when they'll notice the read but silence. An what they will do then? Will ithey be asking if I'm ok or will it be just about demanding me to answer/react to their problems/messages...I kinda expect the latter by now. And it's so sad that I already expect the worst from my friends...

Why are fitnesstracker watches all so huge and ugly? I don't neeed a huge display to read messages on my watch!!!! I just want something that monitors my blood pressure. If I want to read shit I pull out my phone... Most Fitwatches are as as wide as my wrist... I have kinda skinny wrists...bulky big watches don't suit me!!!! Any recommendations??? I need one to track my bloodpressure mainly and that that is not biger than 6cm x 2 cm in size. Thats my the measurements of old one and it already looks bulky on my wrist...😣

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ug8hdSJEYrI "Why is Kristi Noem Using Venezuelan Gang Members as Backdrop to Social Media Video? With Ruthless" Megyn Kelly is completely wrong about this and its obvious, that she still hates Kristi N. for the animal abuse/Killing and you know what? We all took issue with this when KN first brought her animal abuse to light and for the most part, everyone rejected her. President Trump chose KN for DHS and guess what? Us normal people have given KN the chance to "do right" and allow her the opportunity to do the job. And she has done a great job, People like myself, support her because if President Trump trusts her, then we should too, give her a chance to redeem herself. As far of Megyn Kelly criticizing how she "Looks" (Noem) looks in the video, its just sour grapes and disdain. What does MK expect? For Noem to show up in her underwear only and look like an unkept guy? Sorry MK, but females actually do care how they look, especially, if its a female in a high position like her, making a speech! As it is, KN isn't even that well dressed in the vid, she looks like she put on a shirt and a pair of pants and headed to work, like a lot of Americans do. Making fun of her "Skin-tight" shirt, absolute pettiness. MK was too blinded by hatred that she didn't realize that the message of the vid is basically a warning: Come in illegally and break our law, and you'll end up with these criminals who did the same. And if the shoe was on the other foot, MK would definitely be so well dressed, she'd put Noem's outfit to shame, hypocrite Kelly.

Asking federal workers what they do...

Motherfuckers be having "manager" in their job title but asking me how to manage things. Happy fucking Monday.

Oh dear, the next few days will probably require a lot of masking... There are so many project presentations coming up that I have to lead, and tomorrow we have a big company event where it was mentioned that I'll be photographed more often, as a showpiece so to speak. On the one hand, I see the whole thing as an opportunity to consolidate certain positions for myself, but on the other hand, I'm being pushed hard into the center of attention, which I don't really like. Well, now it's time to make myself 'pretty' so that I don't look quite so shitty tomorrow. Hopefully I can sleep despite the intense anxiety...

Sorry for not engaging much in conversations or replying to messages. I have a lot going on in my head lately and also need to focus on my health. I don't feel like talking much. I have nothing much to say. Most interaction is just masking mechanisms.

For a few months now, I’ve been trying to go to the gym three times a week, if possible, even though I often have to find the motivation, especially after work. :D Little by little, I’m starting to see progress in my body, especially when I look in the mirror in the morning and notice my improving natural posture and skin. It’s an extreme contrast to look back at my past when I was constantly (and at times, very) overweight since childhood.